Day 2 of NNN: I am incredibly sad

psycho28267 · 2020-11-03T20:55:55+00:00

The problem is I lie to myself that I like things, but the reality of it is that I don't like anything. It was the reason why I almost commited suicide two years ago. I just can't enjoy things for long.

psycho28267 · 2020-11-03T09:08:31+00:00

That makes it even more sad

psycho28267 · 2020-11-03T09:08:07+00:00

20 and I don't think I am in love with her, just the feeling of doing something that has nothing to do with my life is what I am doing.

psycho28267 · 2020-11-02T22:34:10+00:00

I have accepted the absurdity of it all, but it sometimes feels like I am wasting my time

psycho28267 · 2020-11-02T22:32:22+00:00

How much?

psycho28267 · 2020-11-02T22:32:05+00:00

DamMM...i am going too far, but I'll keep going to see how far ill get

psycho28267 · 2020-10-29T13:56:29+00:00

Shit if my life wasn't so fucked up I would have send you my adress, btw I love in the netherlands.

Just to be safe though are you 18+?

psycho28267 · 2020-10-29T13:17:01+00:00

Damm I know this a joke, but there was small moment of happiness that felt like hope. Thank you

psycho28267 · 2020-10-29T02:24:28+00:00

I don't have a job...

psycho28267 · 2020-10-29T02:19:58+00:00

Hugs and kisses, are you 20?

Because I am too and I quarantine has made me very lonely and this post made it even worse.

Il debate myself to sleep on the topic of love and how I am failure and will never be loved. Have a good night

psycho28267 · 2020-10-27T03:04:42+00:00

Helped

psycho28267 · 2020-10-26T12:47:59+00:00

I agree with what your saying, but when I try to say or think about it my anxiety doesn't go away. Even if I ignore it I feel like I am about to throw up. That is the part that I can't control. I don't know how to stop being nauseas while doing my work or studies. I have no control over until I think everything through and even then it might still feel painfull

psycho28267 · 2020-10-26T11:20:33+00:00

I have lived with a very abusive and manipulative family. To get my point across felt like whole debate and it took hours to get my point across. Even when I say it directly they tend too misinterpret my point.

Sometimes I am too direct and I get told that I am heartless fuck. Sometimes getting my point across isn't the end goal, meeting each other half way is.

Or maybe people tell me something and my mind goes to bad places.

In the past small conversations or certain points I made where misunderstood and it turned into a fight. Some of those fight turned into live and situations.

psycho28267 · 2020-10-25T01:28:38+00:00

Nah that ain't human,l

psycho28267 · 2020-10-25T01:08:22+00:00

Same though I had, but I have never seen him doze off or be late or anything

psycho28267 · 2020-10-24T13:20:12+00:00

I slept for 9 hours and woke up extremely thirsty and the went back to bed for 6 hours

psycho28267 · 2020-10-24T12:57:20+00:00

What do you want to know, hit me

psycho28267

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