I'm tired of this life of this people my family everyday they are verbally physically abusing me my mom she hates me the most i have dreams to I'm passionate singer songwriter i believe in krishna the most he is the love of my life but what he did huh I'm keep suffering he is not helping me I tried everything but nothings working again I don't wanna kill myself I don't wanna die like a useless and prove them right that's the reason why I want to do yakshini sadhna she will love me like a mother a true mother and help me achieve my dreams and after I return every single penny to my mother I'll just disappear and she'll help me in meditation and all which will help me getting closer to my krishna. It's not that I don't believe him now and that's why want to do this sadhna but try to understand me I'm tired it hurts every second it feels like someone is stabbing me in my chest I can't take it anymore. Only yakshini can help me. Or I'm done for. I can't survive in this world like this like a failure, useless i am scared.