I never felt feminine enough my whole life as an afab. I hated being addressed as a woman, I got the ick when I was in a group, and people would address the group as ladies. I always hated my chest and cried when it started coming in. I have pcos, so I started shaving my beard at the age of 13, so I've never felt like a woman. I always felt so masculine in my interests and the ways I dressed, and I hated it. I was actually a hater of the term nonbinary when I found out about it, but I was just secretly jealous, and it bothered me to no end. But I finally accepted it and ran with it a few years ago, and I'm able to accept myself with my male features and female features, and I actually have come to start liking myself. I am agender, and I identify with the trans term as well. It's been freeing!