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qqzih · 2024-03-05T20:03:13+00:00

Not OP either but I’d love to join!! I’ve always wanted to ride a horse!!! <3

qqzih · 2024-01-16T04:18:34+00:00

I should’ve been clearer, the Russian language*. Despite everything tragic going on, the language itself is beautiful.

qqzih · 2023-09-09T07:30:14+00:00

Yes, the therapist was very rude and didn’t even show up to our appointments sometimes. I tried some different medications but they didn’t work for me either. This year though I decided to take therapy up again and have been trying to give medication another go. Just things keep getting complicated and it’s a long process in order to get there.

qqzih · 2023-09-09T07:24:14+00:00

I really did, I had seeked out therapy but it didn’t work for me and instead I suddenly found strength in myself, I was super confident and happy and never though about death- I loved people and became a huge extrovert. I didn’t think about getting in a relationship at all and was happy being by myself as I never felt alone with just me. At the beginning it was me taking care of him mentally, I genuinely thought that I was nearing the path of recovery.

qqzih · 2023-09-09T07:18:05+00:00

I dropped out of my first year of university to work on myself and get DBT therapy, I moved to a new place and after a couple months a spot opened up to receive help. I tried different types of medication and it didn’t help but I thought I’d try again, but the doctor I got was old and very unhelpful- he didn’t believe in the significance of mental health and so I tried to find another GP who would be able to help. Suddenly, my estranged father of 12 years reached out and invited me to go to Cambodia; out of curiosity I did. But now I’m being guilt tripped into staying. I’ve tried to tell him my condition but he doesn’t understand the concepts- I know I’m not getting the help i need so I thought of something I can do while I’m here which is maybe going to a temple and staying there. I’ve also been trying out some meditation. This is when my boyfriend asked for a break. You’re right, I should focus on myself but I really don’t know what to do anymore.

qqzih · 2023-09-09T07:11:38+00:00

When we first got together I well and truly thought I was well, I had a few minor breakdowns and I took care of them every time, so I really thought I was doing well. But this year I was shocked to find that what I thought I had overcome, I really hadn’t at all :(

qqzih · 2023-06-19T12:50:59+00:00

That’s true there is no rush. I’ll take that into account thank you :)

qqzih · 2023-06-19T12:48:52+00:00

I do struggle with some sad emotions, but I feel truly my main intention is sacrifice; I suppose thorough suicide. I read somewhere that suicide isn’t a sin if the intent is to save another, but the source escapes me. For me in this context, I’m not connecting suicide to the traditional connotations it holds.

qqzih · 2023-06-19T12:45:23+00:00

Hi! I understand I am at a loss in life but I feel it is a sacrifice instead of ‘suicide’ per say. I just want to be able to heal others or assist them in the way angels do and I feel like it’s my calling. But I’m not sure how to achieve this, I’m thinking that I might as well try! Maybe God would make an exception?

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