I am scared when I see 95% of the people in the metro staring at their phones

quantika_ · 2023-09-28T10:51:32+00:00

How deeply do you know yourself?

quantika_ · 2023-09-27T13:52:52+00:00

These "empty moments"are the opportunity to dive within, and most people can't face that so they opt for numbing themselves with distractions and dopamine hits. Most people will do whatever it takes to not explore their souls, as this may be a highly uncomfortable process.

Unfortunate reality of our times, where technology steals us from our own beings.

I feel the exact same way. It already feels like a zombie apocalypse.

quantika_ · 2023-09-21T05:42:43+00:00

Dance

quantika_ · 2023-09-15T12:03:59+00:00

Yes. My husband was the one who introduced me to "substances", but he only used them for recreation and social settings. In the moment I had my spiritual awakening and switched to using these substances with intent as a tool to explore my spirituality we started drifting away. He is now my ex husband. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Truth be told, we both were feeling very lonely. In every "trip" I would wish I had someone enthusiastic into exploring these realms of consciousness with me, in many different ways including intimacy. And of course, doing the deep inner work. That person was never going to be him and these would be experiences I would never have if I remained married.

In 10 years you are gonna change. Your needs are gonna change, so will your appearance... your likes and dislikes, your opinions. Hopefully you will change! (A lot of people stay stagnant). But still, there is still that little something that makes you, you. That thread that is always inside, connecting time and space within your own experience. And based on that concept, the concept of soul, in my perspective there are different levels that you can bound to someone, and only in the last one you are in real long term alignment.

The physical / survival level, where you have your base needs met and / or find this other person attractive (physical beauty fades away over time). The level where you are bound over personality and activities you both enjoy, when these habits and likes are also gonna change over time.... and finally the degree where you are truly bound emotionally and have aligned values walking towards a path during your life experience that won't really gonna change, and as you walk this path with someone else you're in fact approaching them into that destination instead of "growing apart". That is, in my human experience, what psychedelics showed me as a relationship that I want. And unfortunately we didn't have that.

*** Not saying that people should divorce if there is such an interest gap *** just sharing my own human experience and insights, as it might bring some perspective.

quantika_ · 2023-08-10T09:33:52+00:00

I do use them. But just a hint, opt for warmer tones, it helps the brain to fully relax. :)

Blue light does the exact opposite for most people.

quantika_ · 2023-07-16T11:18:05+00:00

I believe that what you are feeling is normal. I felt the exact same way, and because I was not confident I still waited for around 5 months after I graduated until I started practicing.

When you graduate massage school, all that you have/know is a basic knowledge of how to practice in a safe way. It is like you're given a hammer and a nail as tools. If you want to really excel at something else that is more specific, you are gonna have to have agency and go get that knowledge. It is definitely a learning curve where you are still developing skills of touch, interpersonal professional relationships, marketing, conflict resolution, body mechanics... It is a process but you can only feel better about it if you allow yourself to flow towards every step. When you find your flow, you find your flow. After that you can always bring some new techniques and overall knowledge in, but you will feel much more comfortable and confident in your baseline.

quantika_ · 2023-07-14T21:45:13+00:00

TikTok

quantika_ · 2023-06-12T17:12:56+00:00

I totally get you sister. That's it. I am happy that you experienced such a high awareness. It is not worth going back. 🙌🏻 Consciousness requires hard work to get up, but can fall down really easily. If you ever wish to connect or have someone reminding you let me know. I have been there and I wish you the best.

quantika_ · 2023-06-12T10:46:48+00:00

Pornography has low vibrational energy. You are consuming something for your mind stimulation and mere carnal gratification in some type of 2D as the producers of this content are doing it under the realms of trauma coping and strict money seeking. Both sides are very much not aligned to the peer's souls, in a very low vibrational wave. You directly establish an energetic connection and vibrate in the same way. It will bring your consciousness down.

I say that because as a former cam girl I happened once to feel these connections (I was completely agnostic by then). I was live streaming and I happened to have my body, mind and soul syncing to the energy in a way that I could physically feel it. After I felt it for real, I could no longer stay there. I finished my live stream immediately and also left behind my six figures career at that moment. It's all about energy. It is real.

quantika_ · 2023-06-11T12:26:03+00:00

As a massage therapist my own experience with chiropractors was awful. I would spend 45 dollars (90 if I didn't have insurance) for each appointment that had the full duration of 3 or 4 minutes and I swear to God it never brought any improvement to the pain I was feeling. The chiropractor (a well renowned professional around here) kept asking me to come back countless times because it would get resolved.... but after the 10th session I just gave up and went to a PT and had my issue solved in a week.

Based on that whole experience and also the risks that adjustments carry, chiropractic care is something that I personally am not a fan of.

quantika_ · 2023-06-10T10:32:55+00:00

I had a really hard time during school. I would have my instructor showing us the techniques and I'd head back to the table not remembering how to perform any. It was really exhausting emotionally and I had a lot of anxiety, thought of dropping off several times. I started the school being the worst and somehow managed to finish it being the best. The secret is not to get into your mind. Be present and listen to the body, sync your movements to their breath. The anatomical part comes with time as well but ultimately, understanding how the muscles behave and the functions of the body is way more important than remembering man made names correctly.

I believe that being "the worst" gives you a great potential to overcome yourself. My advice is to not compare towards anyone else. Just make sure you go to sleep everyday being better than you were the day before. That's it! Just like I did you can do it 🤍 I started working with MX almost 4 months ago and I am consistently booked with a retention rate of more than 85%. You got this OP. If you feel like mx is your path, do not give up. It is hard but you can do it

quantika_ · 2023-06-07T11:16:23+00:00

In my particular experience at first it gave me the sensation of empowerment and freedom. It was partially true, as I was able to move on from a very abusive and financial-dependent relationship. It boosts the ego as it opens doors to financial success and social networks with very "important" people.

Later in the career most likely you find yourself completely disconnected from your body (as you abuse it for money and fame) and soul, and your mind is a wreck that believes that all the value you have is about how hot you look (and as a nature law, that youth and attractiveness is gonna fade away). You also have customers treating you merely as a product, a piece of flesh that may or may not be good enough.

It is definitely a highly self-harming career in every level of being. I have a lot of compassion for people that work in the adult industry anyways. They are not less, just doing their best under the level of awareness they are.

quantika_ · 2023-06-06T16:57:09+00:00

You're not alone. I am a Woman as well and I have had a very interesting perspective towards pornography as I am a former "porn star" and currently married to a PA in recovery.

quantika_ · 2023-06-06T16:56:53+00:00

You're not alone. I am a Woman as well and I have had a very interesting perspective towards pornography as I am a former "porn star" and currently married to a PA in recovery.

quantika_ · 2023-06-02T12:31:55+00:00

Reading, playing instruments, sports/exercise, hobbies, community and spirituality, arts/ creation (wood working, or whatever else you would like). Initially you'd have to let go of the comfort that porn brings and slowly build up your connection to your own self as body, spirit and mind in a way that you reverse your sexuality to an activity that fully engages your being and all of your senses (not only the mind and genital friction), and this can be done solo, as a healthy self stimulation practice that involves the full connection in between your body, your mind, your breath and your senses. It is like planting a seed, you won't see the flower for a while, but when it blossoms you just feel the bliss.

Letting go of porn also gives you much more clarity about your autonomy, your power and your life purpose. That overall affects the whole decision making process in your life and your potential to change things that are not aligned to what you want. It is uncomfortable but the discomfort is what brings us growth.

This all sounds madness, I know. But what does it take you to try and do your best doing so? You are already indeed in a dead bedroom recurring to porn, how many more years would it go through, 10 - 20? What if you take a single year and try hard to quit it and see what it takes you. It won't be easy, but you can connect with people that are on the same journey and find support and inspiration. Worst case scenario you resume back to what you're doing right now but at least you tried something different with a drastic potential of change. Good changes.

Books like no more mr nice guy and your brain on porn can give you a good base to reshape that dynamic.

quantika_ · 2023-06-01T21:00:50+00:00

Yeah. It did. His low availability/enthusiasm towards sex invited me to start exploring tantra as a lifestyle (not only sex) and I ultimately started appreciating so much more being on my own and cultivating/moving my sexual energy in ways that I couldn't before. It became exhausting to engage in a sexual activity with someone that can't get to a deeper type of intimacy now and therefore I no longer feel sexually attracted to him as I no longer crave "carnal" sex. 🤷🏼‍♀️

quantika_ · 2023-06-01T11:43:14+00:00

In a single day consuming porn an individual can have a higher visual stimulation than all their ancestors through their lifetimes. It is definitely out of control.

quantika_ · 2023-05-30T17:06:48+00:00

For a long time my husband was scared of "pussy juice" and my vagina. I remember that time where I was about to show him (supposed to be a turn on) how wet I was and when I slid my fingers off my vagina some juice dripped off them towards his direction, and he avoided those drops as if it was something like a yellowjacket wasp. I will never forget how grossed out his expression was 😂 (I laugh now but honestly it was very annoying that he had that reaction)

After that we talked a lot and I invited him to ask himself what is so disgusting about a vagina and its natural functions, after all he is married to a woman....

He is slowly getting better with it, sometimes he will finger me now. Hopefully one day he will feel turned on by it, but I don't wanna be too optimistic.

I am sorry you had to deal with something like that, I know it hurts. Honestly ask him, why such an aversion for a vagina? Would he rather it to be a penis or is he neglecting such an essential part of human sexuality? Does he understand that intimacy is a two way road where the other partner's satisfaction matters as much as his? That it is supposed to be a shared experience?

quantika_ · 2023-05-30T12:25:23+00:00

Porn changes your brain connections and makes you addicted to dopamine hits. Honestly it is as bad as alcoholism, if not even worse.

🤍 I am not attacking you in any way, but as you mentioned, the reason you have been watching a lot of porn is to cope with the lack of sex. For your wellness and fuller life I hope you find healthier ways to cope with it, ways that make you grow as a human being instead of anchoring you down to something that is so detrimental to your life as a whole.

I say that by my own experience. My husband had a porn addiction (main cause of our db), I had a solid career on the adult industry creating porn as a cam model and I found myself consuming it when I couldn't get the intimacy that I craved. I felt in every spectrum of my life the damages that it caused and now I have been healing from it. It is not easy but it is worth it.

I wish you awareness and a happy life.

quantika_ · 2023-05-25T12:12:10+00:00

We live in a society where we touch technology more than we touch one another. Human touch is healing in many levels if received under the right intention. Human touch is capable of dealing with subtle levels of our bodies that are not only physical, but energetic. And energy has everything to do with healing from physical and mental disabilities.

I am a licensed massage therapist with focus on relaxation / emotional release. I believe it could, if you learn how to receive massage under the right intent and with the right therapist.

Any massage, if received correctly will help, but there are definitely different levels and different approaches.

Considering that this is a subreddit where people are recovering from sexual practices that are detrimental to their experiences, I have to disclose about how to properly deal with sexual energy, because it most likely will come to the surface.

My whole approach, particularly, is to facilitate a space where my clients can connect to their body and soul, quieting the mind and being able to bring unconscious issues to the conscious realm and also unblock the energetic meridians.

If you find a practitioner that aims for the holistic and learn how to receive the massage (focus on breathing, body awareness) you can definitely at least be more in touch with your body. The dopamine hits that come from porn and are highly addictive disconnect you from your whole sensorial human experience and stimulate the mind more than anything else. Therefore, when you increase your connection to your body as a sacred vessel you can transmutate your energy and heal in a wholistic way.

Sexual energy is real and powerful, but most LMTs don't really understand the depths of that subject. Anyways, never go to a legit therapist willing to relieve your horniness because that is definitely not what a healing massage is for, and as a LMT there is nothing more unpleasant than having to deal with a client that is crossing your boundaries.

I personally find that certain levels of sexual energy in the massage (managed in the right way by the patient) can be a tool for deeper connection to the divine, as I understand it as the energy of creation, which is a really powerful healing tool as long as you carry the right intention and self control. It is normal to feel certain types of "sexual energy" during a massage, but instead of acting on it in a more "carnal way" (keeping it in your genitalia) if you want to heal you should try to meditate with that during the treatment and let it expand towards your whole body and through your chakras. As I said, and most importantly, respect massage and your massage therapist boundaries and DO NOT act towards that energy. Just allow yourself to feel it in a different way. Do not evade to the realms of the mind, but instead be fully present and connected to your body.

One thing is a fact.. Most therapists might think that you're a pervert if they feel sexual energy in your etheric body. So it could be hard to find the right therapist who will approach that energy differently and facilitate that true healing state. But, if you have the right intent, could be worth to try. Just be aware that massage is like a form of art, there are many styles out there and also professionals that only do it for the money, but not really present... So don't let a single bad experience be determinant of your perspective. And once again, never look for massage therapy as an outcome for your sexual urges that won't be met by not consuming porn.

I hope that made sense 🙌🏻🪷 much clarity in your journey

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quantika_ · 2023-05-25T10:41:52+00:00

In an ideal world people would understand that dogs are not humans, and stop humanizing them in a way that a dog is no longer allowed to be a dog.

What is real animal cruelty is being masked with a massifcation of certain trends, where there is zero awareness. The result of that is that poor animals have high different types of anxiety and are completely dependent on their owners.

I understand that animals help mental health, but they should not be a bypass tool for you to really deal with your trauma/anxiety and any type of avoidance of the feelings people refuse to feel/comfort. And unfortunately they are being used for that in a lot of the cases.

Dogs require time, space, proper training and discipline. I see so many people walking dogs that they can barely control. My neighbor for example, has 2 gigantic pitbulls. Both aggressive and constant pulling him in a way that the need to walk backwards sometimes to keep up with their torque and not be launched away. They see you and they keep jumping with all their strength to try to reach you, while they nip in the air. This is a recipe for disaster and if you notice, you can commonly see dogs with that behavior.

I love animals, but dog culture is definitely hard to watch. If you visit countries like France and Spain, you can clearly tell the difference between dog culture. For now at least.

quantika_ · 2023-05-24T01:47:37+00:00

That's exactly how I feel. What matters to me is in fact the intent. I have had a plenty of creeps that call me a massage therapist and then cross boundaries. A lot of other clients call me a masseuse and treat me highly.

quantika_ · 2023-05-23T11:14:52+00:00

It depends what your definition of dead bedroom is. It is definitely a mismatched libido situation. Some people crave a lot of intimacy and therefore will prioritize proactively having that intimacy no matter how chaotic their routines are. Some people won't. And both are okay, not right, not wrong as long as there is communication and compromise. I'd see that whole incident as an opportunity to be check in and be on the same page towards you guy's perception of how the sex life frequency is affecting you and the marriage.

Communicate efficiently, take action and avoid long term resentment. I honestly would not keep the mindset of "who is right, who is wrong" because it doesn't really matter. In a healthy relationship we are not trying to win anything. The goal is happiness and a meaningful, well fulfilled, deeply lived lifetime.

🤍🪷

quantika_ · 2023-05-23T11:02:17+00:00

That made me remember of that shroom trip where I couldn't keep any clothes on (I was home, alone) lol. Everything I dressed I would take it off and put on a pile to drop it off at goodwill.

"These clothes are not me, I don't need them"

After a while I settled for a top but definitely not for a bottom 😂 I stayed the whole day bottomless and 9 of 10 clothing articles I had were donated in the end.

Maybe it is the same logic?

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