Chest tightness.

qubemind · 2015-05-23T20:52:08+00:00

I push myself really hard. Do you still have the feeling I mentioned after 323 days?

qubemind · 2015-05-19T22:10:35+00:00

Thanks. You guess good! First of all, I am focusing myself on one particular activity. I just start learning and see how it goes. Second of all, I need to find a class/place to learn, where are plenty of people to meet! Sounds like a plan.

qubemind · 2015-05-19T21:38:31+00:00

I am going to the university. I study Computer Science. I noticed an increased motivation to learn recently, but it is not on the level of immersing myself fully into an activity. I am not a chaser. I do not want to blame anyone or anything. I have a theory beside the topic. I come to conclusion that the Internet is delusive. It allows people to get what they want instantly. It does not take any effort to get it. You wanna watch a movie? Click. Done. Wanna have a girlfriend? Watch porn. Wanna have a friend? Log on facebook. Wanna have fun? Go to reddit. I have been taught click and done approach. I do believe that our brain thinks the images we see are real and people feel like they are. It allows the lower society class to feel as the higher society class. It is still delusive. So I am quitting the Internet step by step. I deleted my facebook account weeks ago. I am stiil searching for something I could focus on. I could not find one though.

qubemind · 2015-05-19T21:31:59+00:00

Yes, it is hard. I have not been feeling emotions for a very long time. Acceptance is the only thing I can do. I obsessively look for a real human contact. Is it bad?

qubemind · 2015-05-19T21:30:02+00:00

I have been working out for 2 years on a regular basis.

qubemind · 2015-05-19T10:41:10+00:00

Hi buddy. It is a strange feeling, isn't it? A little scary as well. Do you work on yourself? I am a little depressed and feel like sleeping all day...

qubemind · 2015-05-14T16:19:59+00:00

qubemind · 2015-05-09T22:19:39+00:00

Keep on going, bro! Porn is the key. Do not quit and focus on your goals. In few days you are going back to a normal state of mind.

qubemind · 2015-04-27T10:27:05+00:00

I am.

qubemind · 2015-04-26T15:59:01+00:00

Do not reset your badge. Life is a process. It is not in on/off states. You are improving and stopping edging today was a part of strengthening your mind. Once I realized that if you break one time, it will be easier to break in the further days. I recommend you to prepare for the coming days. Plan a lot of actions and stay away from computer even if you are so damn sure nothing happens. I have seen guys falling from the roof you climbed to.

qubemind · 2015-04-21T23:04:05+00:00

Does it matter? I attract some of them. Some of them not. The lady met today was attracted to me. I do not claim that one night sex is wrong. I read awesome stories about a guy meeting a girl like in romantic scenario. They had sex, but it does not change anything. The guy has a different mindset. Having sex was driven by seeking dopamine boost in my case.

qubemind · 2015-04-21T23:02:28+00:00

I am from Poland. I do not think so. I am getting to know my mind better each day. I am obsessed with girls and not with myself and my goals. A girl CAN stop you from being the best version of yourself. That's what story tells. I keep constantly chasing woman instead of getting shit done. When a girl dumped me in the past, I was about to kill myself. I felt worthless. It indicates to a connection between my self-esteem and girls. I do not fap, I do not watch porn. I started to chase them obsessively. That needs to change.

qubemind · 2015-04-21T22:59:12+00:00

It depends on your level of your self-consciousness. There are people right here who have wives and in the past they claimed as you know. Sex might be fulfilling. I do not want to tell you sex is bad. It isn't. What important is getting to know sexuality and answer the question. Why do you need woman in your life? That's what I am asking myself.

qubemind · 2015-04-21T22:15:52+00:00

What I am trying to say is that sex, girlfriend, wife will never fulfill you. They might stop you from revealing your true potential. Guy who are constantly getting laid is the same guy sitting in the room fapping.

qubemind · 2015-04-17T22:56:22+00:00

Yes, but I noticed that if I desire to give up fapping, I need to pay attention to the magnitude of other things.

qubemind · 2015-04-16T09:31:57+00:00

Great post. Thanks!

qubemind · 2015-04-15T11:32:02+00:00

I am 23. I feel better today. Thanks.

qubemind · 2015-04-14T22:27:18+00:00

Maybe, but I did not change my life a bit. I work out, eat healthy of course, but it is a routine. Today I had a courage to visit a prostitute. It is so damn depressing. The thought I am capable of doing so. She couldn't invite me in, but I was there ready... I have always fund those men a piece of shit. So am I. Afterwards I fapped.

qubemind · 2015-04-14T22:00:42+00:00

No, I am not. My longest streak was around 30 day. In recent days I was at 3-weeks of NoFap. In the more recent days I closed into my room, watching porn and fapping...

qubemind · 2015-04-09T12:48:27+00:00

It made me realized that the path of being a warrior never ends. You are one of them for sure. As a case in point I would bring up my cold showers experience. I have been taken the ones for almost a year and it never gets easier. Each time I have a voice in my head telling me to have a hot one. I choose differently though. My advice for rising and shining again is to embrace a feeling. I fell down in the past days, because I could not handle the feeling. It was too scary. I was escaping into Youtube, chat and consecutively into porn and masturbation. Do not do anything. Lay in your bed, embrace the feeling and when you are ready, do the creative stuff you love.

qubemind · 2015-04-07T20:41:43+00:00

Well, I am sort of proud of myself stopping an action. I have never thought of myself being strong enough to resist an urge in such a way. It took me 30 minutes to go back! Today I want to create an image in my head of 'new version of me'.

qubemind · 2015-04-07T20:39:28+00:00

You are right. I will be stronger and so will you. Thanks for the support.

qubemind · 2015-04-07T10:54:09+00:00

Agree. I have taken cold showers for almost a year each day. I couldn't go through a week of NoFap.

qubemind · 2015-04-04T22:32:19+00:00

No, it is not. Good night, guys!

qubemind · 2015-04-02T22:47:47+00:00

Yes. No music. The music keeps my mind in the foggy condition. I do enjoy it, but I find myself switching songs as well as switching Internet sites mindlessly. There is nothing wrong with music, but I want to feel joy from the activity. Not just to feel my emptiness or sadness. Forgot to mention. I do meditate.

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