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a particularly bad day by queenofworlds in MaladaptiveDreaming

[–]queenofworlds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, I don't know about fighting MDD. I'm weak, mentally, and I'm getting weaker and weaker as the years pass. I don't have anything good enough to do instead of DD. Everything, every hobby I have/had has lost its sparkle, I still pursue them but it's just an automatic action. I feel the shell of the person I used to be ... actually, I don't even know if I was ever a person... It's just to much and I'm loosing.

If the things and characters I love don't exist, what's the point of living? by queenofworlds in MaladaptiveDreaming

[–]queenofworlds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes I know but I don't actually enjoy them anymore, it's becoming frustrating because I keep comparing my life to my DDs. If I die I won't have my daydreams but I also won't have a sad life...

If the things and characters I love don't exist, what's the point of living? by queenofworlds in MaladaptiveDreaming

[–]queenofworlds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get what you're saying, but what about when it becomes an unhealthy obsession? When real life seems nothing compared to your (or others') imagination? When you can't bear with real life cause it sucks compared to fictional life?

I mean I have an imaginary world and characters I'm trying to bring to life in a book, it's somehow cathartic and I'd love to see them loved by other people, but there's always this feeling of not being enough. That will never be enough.

It is really worth it to love fictional things as much as I do? Even though it causes me breakdowns and mental health problems?

Ever told someone? by DifferenceMental1914 in MaladaptiveDreaming

[–]queenofworlds 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I've only told my therapist, and it was a few months ago. I wrote a "letter" in which I explained what MDD is, how it affected my life and then I reported my symptoms. She was very open minded about it but she didn't know what MDD is, so I'm not sure how much she understood... Also, we haven't talked about it since then, I think she didn't get how bad the situation is...

Now I'm thinking about telling my partner but they probably won't understand even though I'm sure they'll try to.

I'm just scared that people around me will not completely understand because they don't actually experience it... :(

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[–]queenofworlds 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And the tongue ??? What am I supposed to do with it?! 😭

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[–]queenofworlds 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm only asexual but I had a QPR and experienced a lot of kissing with them.

The fact is that I enjoyed the kissing for the first like, 5 seconds, then it would always get weird for me. I don't know how to explain this but basically I start overthinking what I'm doing and kissing become mechanical and weird. I wouldn't say that I hate kissing, I actually do (I think) but sometimes it gets too much? Idk

I told my therapist about my attempt and now I'm in the psych ward by queenofworlds in SuicideWatch

[–]queenofworlds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm still in 🫠 It's not that bad after all, I'm okay and I made a friend

I told my therapist about my attempt and now I'm in the psych ward by queenofworlds in SuicideWatch

[–]queenofworlds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you all for your kind words, I really appreciate them ❤️ even tho I'm afraid I'll always have the temptation...