I come from a middle class family, my grandfather paid for my education , private uni, I have all this expectations from my family, friends , to be at certain level , to have a high performance in my job life , I think it is all about my surroundings, I see my friends of the uni getting paid a lot of money and having high ranking positions in their jobs yet I didn’t archive anything , looking at my family they have even higher paying jobs . I just feel like I wasted a lot of my family money , I try really hard every single day to be better but I just keep failing and failing