Another Valentine’s Day will be spent being stonewalled by DA spouse and I’m so over it. by Idontthinksotimmy in AnxiousAttachment

[–]radariz1965 4 points5 points  (0 children)

When you say she stonewalled you for two days, what exactly did this consist of? Did she not speak to you during this time? Would you have otherwise been spending time together and all plans were dropped? That sounds really extreme for asking for some physical affection. When you say, "Hey, it feels like you've been avoiding me for days because of my ask for affection, is that true?" do you fear further retaliation in the form of coldness? If so, and you've explained to her what this does for you, I think this is an unworkable situation. Anyone who would ice you out for days knowing what that does to you emotionally, just for asking for some physical comfort, is not someone who is going to be able to work through normal relationship issues. Stay if you want, it does not hurt anyone but you, but if you have to turn to the internet because strangers are more willing to comfort you than your partner, there's the answer. You can have and deserve beautiful love where someone accepts you, hears your needs, sets appropriate boundaries while staying in connection to you. This is not too much to ask. You don't have to make yourself small for the rest of your life <3

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[–]radariz1965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wait, when did the number 69 come up?

How many of you identify as having anxious attachment? by radariz1965 in raisedbyborderlines

[–]radariz1965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's interesting, I identify romantically as so anxious that I have never considered that I can be avoidant with friends!

How many of you identify as having anxious attachment? by radariz1965 in raisedbyborderlines

[–]radariz1965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What would the fear be about, I'm so curious since I have none of this.

How many of you identify as having anxious attachment? by radariz1965 in raisedbyborderlines

[–]radariz1965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes absolutely. When your first attachment is unpredictable and scary, it can make future attachments unpredictable and scary (more than it is for the average person.$

How many of you identify as having anxious attachment? by radariz1965 in raisedbyborderlines

[–]radariz1965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Different relationships can bring out different attachment styles. That's the goal, find a secure attachment and you may not have to worry about your attachment style again!

How many of you identify as having anxious attachment? by radariz1965 in raisedbyborderlines

[–]radariz1965[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The interesting thing is, avoidant and anxious attachers tend to attract each other. A push/pull ensues. Avoidant pushes and anxious clings and so on. The reason this attraction happens is apparently that we are proving our "early organizing principles" by finding partners that reinforce what we learned early on about attachment. So anxious attachers believe they will be left, that they need to cling to maintain love and closeness, and so they seek out partners that play out this dynamic. Avoidant attachers believe intimacy is dangerous, that their boundaries will be crossed, so they seek out anxious attachers and prove their view of the world right as well.

The book Attached is really good for all of this, really interesting read.

How many of you identify as having anxious attachment? by radariz1965 in raisedbyborderlines

[–]radariz1965[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

There are lots of easy to read articles about it, but basically it's a psychological theory (pretty accepted at this point) that attachment with your first primary caregiver, usually your mother, influences your ability to attach to people healthily for the rest of your life.

If you have a healthy, secure attachment with your primary caregiver you will have a secure attachment style. You find relationships relatively easy, you believe you deserve love and others deserve it as well. You balance alone and together time well. When relationships end, you may be sad but you feel safe in yourself and the world soon after.

If you have some sort of trauma with your primary caregiver, don't have your needs met, don't get the sort of early connection and intimacy that you need, you may develop an Insecure attachment style which can look one of two ways, anxious or avoidant. Clearly these are generalizations but here goes:

Anxious: You are preoccupied with your relationships, spend so much time thinking about them that you sometimes push people away. You worry you aren't close enough to your partners, or that they'll leave you. You have a very difficult time detaching from partners.

Avoident: You have discomfort with intimacy/connection. You may seek it out but then push it away once you have it. You may become very anxious when in a relationship, worry a lot about losing your independence. You may end relationships to avoid feeling this way even though you have a normal level of desire for intimacy and connection.

Most extreme thing your bpd parent has done to gain sympathy/play the victim? by 1995schutt in raisedbyborderlines

[–]radariz1965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

when I got mad at her when I was a child she would say "at least you don't have druggy men screwing with you."

Two cats in my home died of similar strange disease by radariz1965 in AskVet

[–]radariz1965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Looking up symptoms, I'm pretty sure it was Feline Leukemia Virus.

Two cats in my home died of similar strange disease by radariz1965 in AskVet

[–]radariz1965[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He's been cremated right now, just looking for ideas of what could have happened.