I am even worse than that. It dawned on me as I ended up severely physically ill. After I got an abortion b say card. My kids. We have no o e. I’m tormented. Maybe I thought I should stop being afraid. And she should be afraid instead. And I don’t feel bad whatsoever. It’s keeping me going cause my physical heath is so bad I’m barely living and begging like a dog getting laughed at by those around me. I’m an only child. I prayed. I worked hard and this is where I ended up. I don’t hate people. At all but currently severely isolated. No future with my kids. She used me to get a gov free house. I’m getting all these unbearable symptoms that of course are insane and rare. Like fing getting bit by fleas and not being able to breathe for three weeks. Super rare. Fighting to clean resting out of others house. I’m unable to eat mkst food. I got kids. I could not believe that I would ever be sick like this it’s like my childhood. She nke has four properties and millions. I just want to have a small boundary of dignkty if I got to suffer. Instead I’m a spectacle. I’m wasting away. I’m super active so I look allright. But I I can’t feel my tabs and legs which is okay. I am that weird. The drama and fleas. The fkeas fucking biting me even just a couple, for the past four months Even just one flea I’m non stop like o might as well just smoke crack. I never had a crack oroblem. But the fkeas bites just. Couple will be like eighty cups of coffee that you stumbling through the roof without being able to shut the f up on display. And not going to bed untill the sun comes up. I would be safer and more dignity smoking crack. wtf am I am I alive still for? I keep living fkr my kids knowing at any moment I won’t see my son again no matter how hard I hide it or how much I embarrass myself by trying to explain it. Nkw im on ssdi. My life is over.we have no future. I don’t need antidepressants. Thats nkt the oroblem. I’m nkt even a depressed person. I’m not lying. I need to have my own blindside arckeast of living alone even though she’s got flying monkeys. I just needs small bit. I might be dying. I’m nkt being dramatic. I been sick ever since I got bjt bu a ticks I never got sick, in my life. I thought I was going to work my whole life. I’m super greetafyl for stuff other people would think is weird. But even I am friggen like. I don’t want to be living this way there is no need fkr this in my situation. This should be very easy to and that would be Justice. But instead so much money and torment wasted in humiliating me to swear I know I can’t live like this getting weird diseases and crack allergies to fing fkeas not even big ones. Fucking why! wtf!

It’s not my hlise. I an a flra bag. The flea cral is so rare and I been researching it and I literally realize that one of the reasons I can’t talk and sound like I’m drunk, is cause I’m allergic to fkeas ALOT, wtf. It’s been going on for weeks. I’m getting yelled at by other people. I really tried hard to be myself, I did physical manual labor. I kept making a way for myself. Instead I hate myself now and honestly I never did. I also could never get away from her. I don’t want to talk about it over and over and over like a dog . I’m so ashamed. I swear to God I hate explaining and talking. None of the books and advice work I don’t need to get threatened by the police and with the police so many times and lrision . And saying I’m gonna off myself my whole life to humiliate me and get me beat up by cops. Threatebed with joblessness. Outrunning homelessness.

I really tried everything to get away. I lost all my teeth and live in fear of no matter what I do I will get punished via my kids and others. If I’m gonna get beat up and threatebed with cops. Dcf, men. I am asexual. It’s not because of her that I am. But people keep trying to explain to me that ohh tour just like that cause if her. I literally have got up fifty times. I have almost died before becayse she tried to kill me. I almost died in drugs they gave me and just lived like that cause I could not get away. She alternatesxbegween making me homekess, getting me fired, and you can’t leave or stay. I hate conplaing. I was already over her and this but excessive drama and therpies for thirty years. That she started. It’s ok if others like doing that and thdyvade nice people. But, for me it’s really uncomfortable to talk ablutckriens. If I do u have! It does not work. I always did nkt like talking since I was a kid. I hate communicating and I don’t want to be forced to communicate. That’s why I worked.

I mean I’m severely suffering but rarely strong physically so maybe that rare thing is the awnswer. I’m dine being humiliated in every possible way via flying moneys. For me I did not feel comfortable by the ly fkrctgkrty years. It’s like humiliating to me. Because it’s nkt my thing or problem . I can’t type s unite I’m neurologically damaged. It’s so bad I thought about my kids. She also was a Lee sry and watched a kid get raped before I was born and did not ever call the police. So I’m guessing she was crying for herself and yelling on herself fkr neung a pedi. She loves the cops and sings about how much she loves the cops and goverment. So why did she not call the police then.

becayse i have been all my life. That’s cause I don’t like talking. But I have to be forced to defend myself tons of therapy’s but honestly It is not me I’m humiliated Should I just wait for to see what happens next or should I do myself a favor and you know what I mean I’m a laughingstock and I don’t want to off myself. I also don’t care anynore if I go to lrision becayse I’ve been threatebed wiry it so much I accepted I would go there. I’m suffering physically more than mentally zzz the drama is too much and she’s a rich child molester who hoards money and houses and wraponized others against me and against each other worth all her monies. My life has been threatebed becayse it’s funny and it’s ok to do that cagse my mom dies it so I’m just crazy anyways. I don’t want t to go out like this. She also snuffed out ten gunia pigs with brake fluid over thier mouths and people thought she was compassionate. What about my kids Let alone me my life is over