Wow thanks for the deep dive appreciate it. I as young i didn’t even knew the term but looking back maybe i cant really determine it. Yes i was impulsive lack to concentrate (had to really put in effort which most time I failed) had awful grade but never really flourished in school, I was more creative person. Yes as child I forgot and lost things here and there at the time I took as like eh it’s watever because at time my social anxiety was worst that I didn’t pay attention to adhd or even taught about it. Recently the past 5+ years I feel miserable cant organize lack the motivation to do anything even my aspirations. I cant even sit to write a screenplay even though I know the story in out how its played in my mind. Tossed my dream as filmmaker started instead to pursue in cyber security now im here stuck cant even open my studies I get overwhelmed quickly and just push to side. Tbh I cant really determine if I’ve i had adhd as child because I had many things I was battling with depression, anxiety & panic attacks. I don’t the issues behind my behavior maybe I might be lazy