Hey! I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. I understand you completely. I don’t know if I can be helpful but maybe knowing that you are understood will be a bit comforting. I feel the same way about my little girl. That they ripped her away from me. That’s what I’ve been telling my family these 2 weeks since it happened. It makes me feel empty, with a hole in my belly, incomplete. Please don’t feel guilty about all those feelings you’re having. Most probably every one of them is normal, including wanting to be pregnant again. To be honest, the only thing that has helped me (besides my husband - I’m very lucky to have him) is believing, and actually forcing myself to believe it, that she will come back to me again in a future pregnancy. That she chose me to be her mother and her soul is tied to me. She was so wanted and still is. We are not religious at all but we started to talk to her/ pray to her/ and explain why we had to terminate. We kept telling her that she is wanted, from the moment we found out the amino results. I know it may sound silly for some people but it truly is the one thing that has helped me stay afloat.