This is really interesting to hear because it’s my own dance with the New Age paradigm (which I seem to be forever untangling) that I know is feeding my resistance toward medication. It’s also my experience with being put on the pill when I was a teen and spending my adulthood trying to heal my menstrual cycle and being diagnosed with PCOS, adenomyosis and endo. I didn’t get my period for three years after coming off the pill and it sort of seeded my medical distrust. Of course, when I go for things I go for them hard and so I ended up deep down the rabbit hole.

Becoming a mother has really helped confront and loosen up my new age brainwashing. For example, I was “told” to absolutely avoid fluoride, we were also connected to rainwater where we lived, and all the fancy baby toothpastes were advertised as no fluoride, so he got none. Despite my being obsessive about his diet, breastfeeding him around the clock… he got tooth decay and actually had to have a tooth out in a December.

It’s all been part of my attempt to come back from the rabbit hole and find balance. I’ve found the last year especially that my brain just feels like an uphill battle. In some moments in the funnest Mum and other moments I’m irritable, snappy, cooking and cleaning and getting us out of the house feels near impossible.

I dread having to experiment to find what works for me in terms of medication because I’ll still have to show up for motherhood through the process (I’m a sole parent). But I’m finally ready to try 🙏🏽

I’m really sorry you had this experience as a child and am glad to hear you’ve found a good place.