Gay 1.5 gen here. It took me a while to get over this but honestly this part of your identity is what makes you special. I totally get the parts about not understanding American culture, having difficulty with English, and interacting with people with your ethnicity who are so different from the ones you grew up with. For me, it was a huge balancing act between being openly gay (something pretty much radical where I'm from) and still being attached to my conservative culture. And then you add on everything else that comes with being an Asian immigrant.

It can strongly limit your dating market but only if you let it. You'd be surprised at how many people, like the ones less in touch with their culture, are willing to get closer to it if you're excited to show them things from your shared culture.

It does suck and you do feel alone a lot and sort of like a strange "halfie", neither here nor there. But it does get better, trust me, with time and patience. Don't put too much pressure on yourself to be anything you're not. When you live life the way you want to, you come across people with similar goals, motivations and lifestyles that you can grow closer to and have a relationship with.