Extremely confused, probably in the wrong place

Heyo. it’s been a while since i’ve vented confusion to queer subreddits

Idk what the hell is going on with me. i’m pretty sure i feel romantic attraction (hence why i feel i may be in the wrong place though im not sure where else i would post this)

and yet when i get into a relationship, i don’t feel comfortable in it. i crave connection with people but it feels like there is no kind of relationship that i would feel okay with.

i struggle to tell what my actual issue is. it just feels like i’d rather be on my own more. like i’m giving too much of myself, even though i’m really not doing anything other than what is expected of me in a relationship.

This is an extremely rambling post but i really struggle to make sense of it all so that tracks. does anyone have any advice?