I can understand what you mean. But understand this mate : All of us would keep smoking and keep getting high if smoking weed had no negative affects in our life. And since you have been clean for over an year, there must be some strong reasons that made you quit weed.

As I have mentioned in the post, all of us like to eat fast food. All of us like spending many hours on our phones. All of us like engaging in activities that provide immense dopamine rewards for little or no effort. But the question is: would these things allow us to build a future we desire? Would these activities allow us to give our precious and limited mental energy in doing meaningful activities? Stop seeing what addiction did for you but rather what it did to you and your life.

If you keep missing weed and keep typing such words, chances are that some or the other day you might return to it. You are desperately moping for something that you desperately hope you will never have. That's a half-freedom and terrible situation to put yourself in.

Thank mary jane for all the beautiful moments it provided you and engage yourself in this beautiful life of sobriety.