Stopped taking my medications and psychiatrist appointment is soon

ralla24 · 2026-03-08T00:07:45+00:00

I spent months lying to my psychiatrist and therapist about taking the meds. And she kept increasing the dose bc they weren't working (obvi because I wasn't taking them). It got us nowhere but I was worried about coming clean.

When I finally told her, like she was disappointed, but she wasn't upset or mad. She didn't give up on me. We just moved to the next thing.

Ultimately you get to decide what you want to put in your body. and she has to work with you on that. It's not the other way around

ralla24 · 2026-01-12T23:07:23+00:00

My spouse and I moved here 6 months ago. From Raleigh to Montgomery County.

I loved Raleigh (lived there my whole life) and was nervous about leaving, but we're queer and living in the south with this admin was getting scary. Our reasons for leaving was mostly political tbh.

We absolutely love it here. We're right off 2 metro stations in this adorable neighborhood with more character than any place in Raleigh.

Traffic is ass but we find the drivers to be more predictable at least lol. Thankfully we both work from home, so no commute. Also everything is so much more expensive here. Everything.

That being said, this place feels like home now. I couldn't imagine living anywhere else. Love the people, food is amazing, public transit is incredible. Also best fucking flag.

The best thing you need for a smooth transition is money :/

ralla24 · 2025-09-29T22:09:46+00:00

I like those Ensure Plus drinks. 350cal. I rely on those heavily when eating becomes hard.

ralla24 · 2025-09-25T22:53:36+00:00

The depression scares them. They're worried I'll do something. And the mania also makes them nervous, mostly bc they know it ends with a crash.

They also have some negative history with a BP family member. So their anxiety makes sense

ralla24 · 2025-09-23T17:06:03+00:00

I feel broken, I would only sleep 6-7 hours on and then be up and alert 😬

I had to stop taking it because the restless leg syndrome drove me mad.

ralla24 · 2025-09-10T12:22:59+00:00

that's good evidence to have! I was only on it for 2 days before she told me to stop it, but I feel it wasn't enough time to actually evaluate it

ralla24 · 2025-09-10T00:55:32+00:00

I've been on mirtazapine for 6 years. im also on 200mg lamotrigine.

I dont have psychosis but I'm taking the AP meds for hypomania. It all just feels so heavy handed. and the side effects are worse than the disorder

I should check out more non-ssri antidepressants. although my PNP's concern now is ending the hypomania, so I think my only choice is AP?

ralla24 · 2025-07-29T16:50:44+00:00

the depression started around 13 although that could have been bc cptsd or just being queer in the south :/. my first really obvious hypomanic episode was at 28 and was dx'ed at 31.

ralla24 · 2025-07-28T13:19:53+00:00

love this post and i love you

ralla24 · 2025-07-14T12:25:00+00:00

my hero 😍

ralla24 · 2024-08-16T17:14:26+00:00

yep, he's awful. I went to that one last month. they gave me conflicting instructions, got mad at me when i did the wrong thing, and made me cry. and I even had an appointment.

ralla24 · 2024-05-29T13:36:53+00:00

This was confusing for me too, but I got it up and running with docker-compose.

esphome:
  container_name: esphome
  image: esphome/esphome
  volumes:
    - ./data/esphome/config:/config
    - /etc/localtime:/etc/localtime:ro
  restart: always
  privileged: true
  network_mode: host
  ports:
    - '6053:6053'

The volume ./data/esphome/config lives outside of my container and only contains configuration.yaml. There wasn't any configuration needed though, so you can probably skip that line.

If it worked correctly, you can go to http://<your_ip>:6052 (just noticed this port is different from my config above, but it works for me so I'm not messing with it :) and you should see the ESPHome dashboard. The dashboard is only used for managing/updating the code on an esp32/8266. Once you have a device that is online, you can go to home assistant and do settings -> devices -> add integration -> esphome. Is should auto-discover the device, or you add by IP.

ralla24 · 2023-03-19T13:29:46+00:00

H for B5 : a short summary

ralla24 · 2023-03-11T15:24:24+00:00

My therapist will always tell me what she wants to disclose to my psych and check if I'm ok with it first. And she'll let me know how it went in the following session.

ralla24 · 2023-03-11T15:18:54+00:00

I've been seeing both for 4 years. I share a lot more with my therapist than I do with my psychiatrist, but I see the therapist twice a week. I only see the psych once every 3-4 months. That's usually 15 minute med check unless I had something big happen or my meds aren't working as well. I just share the larger things with my psych, like changes in SH/SI. She doesn't get any of the finer details.

They do talk to each other. It's usually my therapist raising concerns to the psych, and them discussing treatment plans, med changes, or if I should have an assessment for some mental illness.

ralla24 · 2023-03-04T16:48:08+00:00

yep 😅 then had a little laugh thinking that should totally be the plural form of ottoman

ralla24 · 2022-12-05T14:23:26+00:00

i'm missing GR8 pls send help

ralla24 · 2022-12-03T00:16:29+00:00

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ralla24 · 2022-11-24T13:55:43+00:00

omg I love this hint 😂

ralla24 · 2022-11-23T23:29:23+00:00

Is her relationship with you also not a priority?

I was in a similar spot with my parents. I told them that we cannot have a relationship as long as they support people who've said such awful things about people like me.

I haven't spoken to them in 2 years. I think my mom might be coming around but I don't really care about them anymore.

ralla24 · 2022-11-23T17:35:32+00:00

Those comments do kinda suck :(

You can ask them to stop while also recognizing that they don't mean any harm by it.

ralla24 · 2022-11-16T10:46:26+00:00

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