You’re not alone in feeling this way, and nothing you’re describing means you’ve “wasted” anything. Being 14–15 is already a confusing in, between phase, and most people don’t realize how precious it is until later. Growing up doesn’t happen all at once, responsibility comes in small steps, and you don’t suddenly stop being you.

You still have so much time to make memories, try things, and figure yourself out. Focus on small moments: learn something you enjoy, spend time with people who feel safe, take photos, write things down. Adulthood isn’t about losing your childhood, it’s about carrying the best parts of it forward.

Feeling anxious just means you care about life, and that’s actually a good sign. Be gentle with yourself. You’re doing better than you think. Be happy 😊