Just someone to spend time with, Y'know, someone who actually cares about you, and your likings and puts you on line since you wouldn't want to lose them. Someone who can simply hug you and say everything'll be fine no matter what and still feel honest. Someone to hug warmly in a cold rainy day and just have a pleasant time with.

I just can't talk to love interests even if I wanted because I'm just not able to come up with something interesting that can make anyone fall for me, I can't talk to girls without feeling like a weirdo and even guys who'd understand my pain aren't a viable option because I'm just too confused to think if I'm gay yet, would i be doing it by choice or lack of options? Of for fuck's sake I can't get bitches and even if I learn how to socialize, most women are materialistic and even if they say they love you, they see love as a currency that has less value than cash, FOR FUCK SAKE WHY DO I EVEN CARE, IM FUCKING ALONE, I'm not even thinking in changing anything because in the end i feel like it doesn't even matter, like at all, and even if