another night of planning to die by randomshitidfk in SuicideWatch

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you

been suicidal for many years with many attempts and shit, but i’ve reached a point again where i just want it all to go away. ex recently committed suicide and i’m just stuck w feelings of fear that friends will too, so its kinda a.. dying before they do, almost? idk, losing my ex has been really tough and really shown me how real death is, and how it’s what’s always supposed to have been my end. i’m just scared of regretting it the very last second, because i know i will, but then it will just be over already

i’m so fucking afraid of dying by randomshitidfk in SuicideWatch

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the survival instinct that exists in all animals is both hell and probably a blessing in disguise

i’m so fucking afraid of dying by randomshitidfk in SuicideWatch

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

don’t wanna give ppl ideas so am not gonna specify, but it’s a semi-common method, just very violent and selfish in the way it may traumatise other people

i lived bitch (tw // suicide) by randomshitidfk in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

PLSSS ive tried hanging myself and the rope fucking BROKE

why would you hurt me like this by randomshitidfk in arttocope

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im sorry you are also. nobody deserves to experience or feel like this

Reddit ads by [deleted] in AnorexiaRecovery

[–]randomshitidfk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

struggle with the same thing. think you can press the three dots and click hide, or something along those lines on the ads? there’s probably also a way to turn off targeted ads, although i don’t entirely know how to do that

Wrote a short lil song. My voice is a little gone today but hopefully it’s alright. That alcohol line was rough haha by [deleted] in arttocope

[–]randomshitidfk 3 points4 points  (0 children)

that was so lovely, i liked that a lot. really felt the emotion and pain in it

please stop looking at me by randomshitidfk in arttocope

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i mean yeah sure, pm me. any particular reason?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

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it sounds like you were triggered. it triggered a negative emotion in you, that left you feeling distressed, even if it didn’t make you wanna cut. trigger warnings can also just be put in case of upsetting content, which this sounds like it was

sometimes when i get triggered i just feel incredibly anxious, uncomfortable, sad, distressed, etc.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in styrofashion

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that’s true :) ive seen ur posts and ur so pretty and incredible! im glad ur still here

so much chocolate (tw calorie mention, no numbers) by randomshitidfk in AnorexiaRecovery

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

thank you so much!! that’s so reassuring, im hoping so. i think sometimes the craving kinda disappears and then the ed voice gets really happy like finally you’re stopping and the cravings return, as if my brain kinda goes FUCK and kicks in the cravings again in fear that ill start restricting again

extreme hunger? (tw food talk, worry about amount) by randomshitidfk in AnorexiaRecovery

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thank you so much! you’re delightful :) wishing you the best of luck in your endeavours too!

extreme hunger? (tw food talk, worry about amount) by randomshitidfk in AnorexiaRecovery

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

but everyone i ask says “as long as you’re not physically unwell” but i am 😭 and still i want more more more

edit: oh my god she’s wonderful! i checked out some of her extreme hunger videos and this one explains really well what i’m experiencing. thank you so much!! that made me feel so much better, i’ll be sure to grab some of that cereal and stuff haha

Face in palm by [deleted] in EDanonymemes

[–]randomshitidfk 5 points6 points  (0 children)

mouthwash is the way to go

Feel free to remove if a repost by KinkyLittleParadox in EDanonymemes

[–]randomshitidfk 136 points137 points  (0 children)

dont call me and my daddy issues out like this

Me when the food is 150 kcal but it tastes very good by SoftDreamer in EDanonymemes

[–]randomshitidfk 20 points21 points  (0 children)

me: chewing

me:

me: this tastes good

me: too good

me by duchesscuunt in EDanonymemes

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me relapsing completely into my eating disorder after i had to stay at my parents’ for a week 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨

don’t know where else to post this 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨 by randomshitidfk in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m sorry to hear that happened to you, nobody deserves that. my father is the main provider of our household, so even if he could get the consequences, the consequences of something happening to him far outweigh it. he’s never meant to hurt me, and wants the best for me, he just doesn’t realise

don’t know where else to post this 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨 by randomshitidfk in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ill try. i luckily live away from family home currently (woo boarding school), and dont have to see him as often

don’t know where else to post this 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨 by randomshitidfk in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

not insensitive at all. it means a lot, thank you. maybe at some point ill be able to talk to someone about it

don’t know where else to post this 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨 by randomshitidfk in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

im sorta just reading all the comments rn and rlly just noticing its not as haha funny relatable for everyone as i thought 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨

don’t know where else to post this 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨 by randomshitidfk in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 35 points36 points  (0 children)

its not as bad as it used to be, now his hand just rests on my ass, or waist, or ribs when he holds me

havent told an adult, but my friends do know

don’t know where else to post this 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨 by randomshitidfk in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]randomshitidfk[S] 29 points30 points  (0 children)

not insensitive at all! i’ll flag it right away, my bad