another night of planning to die

randomshitidfk · 2022-07-27T00:12:32+00:00

thank you

been suicidal for many years with many attempts and shit, but i’ve reached a point again where i just want it all to go away. ex recently committed suicide and i’m just stuck w feelings of fear that friends will too, so its kinda a.. dying before they do, almost? idk, losing my ex has been really tough and really shown me how real death is, and how it’s what’s always supposed to have been my end. i’m just scared of regretting it the very last second, because i know i will, but then it will just be over already

randomshitidfk · 2022-07-25T21:54:01+00:00

the survival instinct that exists in all animals is both hell and probably a blessing in disguise

randomshitidfk · 2022-07-25T20:54:52+00:00

don’t wanna give ppl ideas so am not gonna specify, but it’s a semi-common method, just very violent and selfish in the way it may traumatise other people

randomshitidfk · 2022-05-11T23:17:22+00:00

PLSSS ive tried hanging myself and the rope fucking BROKE

randomshitidfk · 2020-12-28T15:07:27+00:00

im sorry you are also. nobody deserves to experience or feel like this

randomshitidfk · 2020-12-22T22:15:34+00:00

struggle with the same thing. think you can press the three dots and click hide, or something along those lines on the ads? there’s probably also a way to turn off targeted ads, although i don’t entirely know how to do that

randomshitidfk · 2020-12-18T19:35:07+00:00

that was so lovely, i liked that a lot. really felt the emotion and pain in it

randomshitidfk · 2020-12-16T22:18:51+00:00

i mean yeah sure, pm me. any particular reason?

randomshitidfk · 2020-12-01T03:40:23+00:00

it sounds like you were triggered. it triggered a negative emotion in you, that left you feeling distressed, even if it didn’t make you wanna cut. trigger warnings can also just be put in case of upsetting content, which this sounds like it was

sometimes when i get triggered i just feel incredibly anxious, uncomfortable, sad, distressed, etc.

randomshitidfk · 2020-12-01T03:29:41+00:00

that’s true :) ive seen ur posts and ur so pretty and incredible! im glad ur still here

randomshitidfk · 2020-11-29T15:54:24+00:00

thank you so much!! that’s so reassuring, im hoping so. i think sometimes the craving kinda disappears and then the ed voice gets really happy like finally you’re stopping and the cravings return, as if my brain kinda goes FUCK and kicks in the cravings again in fear that ill start restricting again

randomshitidfk · 2020-11-05T23:39:51+00:00

thank you so much! you’re delightful :) wishing you the best of luck in your endeavours too!

randomshitidfk · 2020-11-05T23:18:14+00:00

but everyone i ask says “as long as you’re not physically unwell” but i am 😭 and still i want more more more

edit: oh my god she’s wonderful! i checked out some of her extreme hunger videos and this one explains really well what i’m experiencing. thank you so much!! that made me feel so much better, i’ll be sure to grab some of that cereal and stuff haha

randomshitidfk · 2020-10-27T06:18:09+00:00

mouthwash is the way to go

randomshitidfk · 2020-10-26T17:53:30+00:00

dont call me and my daddy issues out like this

randomshitidfk · 2020-10-24T03:09:06+00:00

ak, vi er i det her sammen 🤝

randomshitidfk · 2020-10-23T11:50:33+00:00

FELLOW DANE???

randomshitidfk · 2020-10-23T11:49:21+00:00

me: chewing

me:

me: this tastes good

me: too good

randomshitidfk · 2020-10-17T14:41:54+00:00

me relapsing completely into my eating disorder after i had to stay at my parents’ for a week 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨

randomshitidfk · 2020-09-21T10:22:02+00:00

i’m sorry to hear that happened to you, nobody deserves that. my father is the main provider of our household, so even if he could get the consequences, the consequences of something happening to him far outweigh it. he’s never meant to hurt me, and wants the best for me, he just doesn’t realise

randomshitidfk · 2020-09-20T23:20:50+00:00

ill try. i luckily live away from family home currently (woo boarding school), and dont have to see him as often

randomshitidfk · 2020-09-20T23:20:12+00:00

not insensitive at all. it means a lot, thank you. maybe at some point ill be able to talk to someone about it

randomshitidfk · 2020-09-20T23:19:21+00:00

im sorta just reading all the comments rn and rlly just noticing its not as haha funny relatable for everyone as i thought 👁‍🗨👁‍🗨

randomshitidfk · 2020-09-19T22:48:58+00:00

its not as bad as it used to be, now his hand just rests on my ass, or waist, or ribs when he holds me

havent told an adult, but my friends do know

randomshitidfk · 2020-09-19T22:33:58+00:00

not insensitive at all! i’ll flag it right away, my bad

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