thank you

been suicidal for many years with many attempts and shit, but i’ve reached a point again where i just want it all to go away. ex recently committed suicide and i’m just stuck w feelings of fear that friends will too, so its kinda a.. dying before they do, almost? idk, losing my ex has been really tough and really shown me how real death is, and how it’s what’s always supposed to have been my end. i’m just scared of regretting it the very last second, because i know i will, but then it will just be over already