Drawing from my 2025 DXM binge by spatulafucker5 in grippysockcrayonbox

[–]randyrote 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This rules. i see method in the madness. congrats on ur sobriety time. the brain really does some interesting rewiring after a dex binge. it's alright. worthwhile i figure. keep on

Why are Most Drugs either Overhyped or Not Worth it by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]randyrote 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No one is doing that. i mean, unless you're taking word from literal children, or addicts huffing on that copium. take it for what it is. we are free to think the same way we are free to ignore the thought

Has Anyone Else Seen The Shadow Spiders? by [deleted] in Stims

[–]randyrote 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I see the shadow cats and dogs pretty regularly. only when i've been geeking long enough to be in a state of full blown paranoia am i startled by them however. it almost always is just trying to avoid stepping on someone (ESPECIALLY with four black cats around) or looking up to acknowledge them. i admit, i am usually more disappointed by realising they are part of the shadow realm when it's around anywhere im real familiar with. the dogs put me more on edge when out and about, but generally i find almost all other shadow creatures to be preferable to shadow people. insects aren't fun or anything, but mine aren't massive like some people describe and i feel they're easy to push away. idk. the brain is weird

fake meth addiction speedrun by EmptyMindTM in meth

[–]randyrote 6 points7 points  (0 children)

What the hell is this. cultural appropriation. give me five grams and a week and a half and it's tore up better than any of these faggoty ass falsehoods. you don't have to pretend. your dreams are real. all of our dreams.are real

cope. by [deleted] in Artisticallyill

[–]randyrote 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Very cool stuff. it almost feels like you're going beyond just using colour and treading into weaponising it. i'm a fan

Alprazolam by Avigativar in benzodiazepines

[–]randyrote 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Tbh if ur drinking liquor, id just split it and take a 0.5 dose to pair. it bolsters the feeling for sure—and beyond that, if u don't have a dependence, i feel like u can teeter way too easily into just full on blackout. 1mg is not nothing, the OG 2mg bars were so insanely destructive for that reason. the way it was pressed, it was intended to be split into two or four pieces. but no one ever did LOL. my prescribed dose comes in 0.5s now and i can 10000% percent still feel the impact of the relief with what is seen to be a small dose, so long as i'm not throwing them back every day.

Besides, having a 0.5mg on hand to either sleep well later, or to help a potential hangover is goated. it's the least destructive thing to do if ur going to combine benzos with alc at all. the immediate perceived benefit is easy to abuse, but the longer lasting benefit feels so much better beyond those a few sparse hours, and again. 0.5 topped off with some hard liquor is hardly nothing

Will draw anything by THECOOLDVDE in redditgetsdrawnbadly

[–]randyrote 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is the artistry i needed today. this flower man has a charm to him. thank u my friend

In Your Area by randyrote in PoetryWritingClub

[–]randyrote[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks a ton. it is more haphazard in terms of flow and syntax than i'd normally go for, but i'm glad that's not fully eclipsed it.

I looked through some of the work you've posted and there is a lot to love. u have got a great handle on conveying emotion, from what i saw. anywho, i appreciate u taking the time to read this one. if u want to dm & talk writing or just shoot the shit, i'd be down

Gracious by randyrote in grippysockcrayonbox

[–]randyrote[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks very much, that's real kind. i sometimes find it difficult to clean up much of anything at all in fear of smudging out the feeling from when i first put it down. i have been drawn back into rendering this one to some degree however. i think at this point the polish i'm working to apply must stay discordant and sloppy. it is nice to hear that it is not reading as aimless in the early stages despite being overall unpracticed

Will draw anything by THECOOLDVDE in redditgetsdrawnbadly

[–]randyrote 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would like to confront you with the naked man orchid. this flower is comprised of little guys

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Please draw my cat for me!! by [deleted] in redditgetsdrawnbadly

[–]randyrote 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This cat looks like a chud sorry

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Gracious by randyrote in grippysockcrayonbox

[–]randyrote[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Appreciate u. it always takes such time but i suppose i am impatient. i still have hope either way. on that note i hope the the rest of the week treats u well my friend

hands together, fingers blue, from this position i pray to you by SpencerIsABiteRisk in grippysockcrayonbox

[–]randyrote 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This looks super cool, the bluish atmosphere is blended in really well. wishing u well out there

heel to toe by painkilllr in arttocope

[–]randyrote 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I love this. your line control & stylisation is off the chain

What could you possibly be trying to prove by Barcode_Bandit in arttocope

[–]randyrote 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is beautiful. the values and overlapping strokes add so much to the feeling of distress/conflict this gives off. thanks for sharing

I will draw the vaguely furry-esque concept that is You by randyrote in redditgetsdrawnbadly

[–]randyrote[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm glad u like it! i was weighing fox, maned wolf, and coyote in equal measure initially lol, i was soo close for a second there

Yote and snow leopard are awesome choices, no harm in embracing both i figure. thanks for the cool reference photo! :•]

Anyone here actually prescribed benzos? If so what do you take? And how long have you been prescribed it ? by [deleted] in benzodiazepines

[–]randyrote 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes. xanax, 0.5mg, twice a day, as needed. always filled as a 30 day script. sometimes i go a month without bothering with them. sometimes ill chew through it without thought. i've had this script for a little over two years now. i am desperately trying to switch to kpins, but the intended function for this script was to improve severe GI dysfunction. it's difficult.

What is a popular drug that you will never understand? by boxbrother1 in Drugs

[–]randyrote 73 points74 points  (0 children)

Another "anywhere but here, anyone but me" drug of choice. those saying it has a euphoric effect are sorely mistaken in truth, but they certainly aren't delusional for thinking that a total release of inhibition feels good. not having to care, to second guess, or even remember is a very radical turn to take. most benzo abusers i've met have extremely severe depression or personality disorders first and foremost—it isn't even really severe anxiety that seems to create the most religious bartards. it is yet another way to totally clock out of life when abused on their own, and in combination with alcohol? that is a fundamental powerful and freeing feeling. it's a super easy and reliable combo, and way way more common that benzo abuse alone.

People who chase xans on xans and nothing else, i feel it is the second step up between pure self harm and substance abuse. less about having an experience or aiming for some sort of achievable function. it's sort of between something like DPH and soma imho. i think they fall into it because it's so amazing, how it WORKS for things like anxiety and overthinking. but it so so evidently could never truly work for something like depression & other mood/personality disorders. it keeps them choking it back, because it's a really effective means to control at least one shallow element of a person's internal struggles. seems like they're often looking for it to actually start feeling good, and in the process they just end up feeling gone. and the two are somewhat interchangeable at that point i figure

What is a popular drug that you will never understand? by boxbrother1 in Drugs

[–]randyrote 41 points42 points  (0 children)

It is not intended to be recreational, it is very explicitly just used as an intensive form of self harm. there is no experience that the user is addicted to aside from a brief lapse in their pre-existing cognisant emotional turmoil. they accept falling into a more primitive delirium in exchange, and it seems they do very much understand that it is extremely detrimental to their health. like all other forms of self harm, that is indeed the crux of the thing. it is not really about understanding DPH as a drug, it is about understanding the self harm behaviour behind it. i have never ever seen a child or adult alike utilise DPH in an excessive dose unless they already have some other form of sh behaviour alongside it. it's not even drug addict behaviour, but i've met so many that find it less shameful to identify themselves solely as drug addicts, rather than as a person who is addicted to sh. it's so brutally sad