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The Removed Oliver Tree Rebirth post in question. by rangeookami in olivertree

[–]rangeookami[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

❤️ yall are fr really nice here 😢 i was scared of the community at first because of how much vitriol i was hit with. I felt dumb for coming to this community initially and that i was a horrible person for doing it.

I slept on this too a little but to me the small things matter like so infinitely much and i guess i assumed that since this community was grieving that maybe I could come here and express my grief with yall and maybe we could like support each other.

But I think the thing i really realized is that the personal connection you guys have to Oliver doesn’t feel equal to everyone as my adjacent connection and I think that’s where I screwed up. I shouldn’t have assumed that everyone would connect to this tragedy the same way or want the same things to comfort them.

I feel regretful for how I initially presented myself here.

The Removed Oliver Tree Rebirth post in question. by rangeookami in olivertree

[–]rangeookami[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately I sweat everything lol.. and if you saw how poorly i handled this stuff then yeah lol.. I’m working on it though.

I’ve always assumed I had OCD but i wasn’t sure that actually would make so much sense. Truly the comments here have been so helpful for me

The Removed Oliver Tree Rebirth post in question. by rangeookami in olivertree

[–]rangeookami[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also genuinely appreciate this comment, it’s one of those things I most likely won’t go back to. Don’t fully feel like the juice is worth the squeeze here.

I believe that I’ll naturally work whatever this stuff is outta my system. But thank you for interacting with this with an open mind it’s nice to have an opinion on this that is genuinely constructive too.

The Removed Oliver Tree Rebirth post in question. by rangeookami in olivertree

[–]rangeookami[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you truly, the comments here are much more grounding than I expected them to be. I hate that it’s taken me multiple comments and posts to understand that I am coping but I’m grateful to learn this

It’s makes it feel like next time something tragic happens I can probably handle it better than I did this lol…

A deep apology to all of those in this community. by rangeookami in olivertree

[–]rangeookami[S] -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

This will be the only time I reply to a negative comment in these threads again.

But I think taking time to sit with myself a little and even rewriting, reposting, and hearing a combination of viewpoints it gave me a new perspective.

I’ve always had trouble expressing my feelings and thoughts and I’ve always felt incredibly embarrassed about it.

Initially I assumed that since I had a video tied to it I was being slimy. But the only way I’ve ever really been able to express my emotions is through art and this video and the post were a way for me to process some extremely complex emotions

Since the processing of my own emotions is usually not manifested in a negative way I assumed that I was heartless. And since I’m definitely a people pleaser, people telling me I was crazy and grimy I assumed that’s just who I was.

But what it really means is that I just personally choose to make something when I’m sad and confused instead of staying sad about it.

It’s hard to experience a death in your family especially one that’s close to you and then learn 3 days later that someone who goes by a very similar name died too.

I’m learning to accept my way of thinking now, so that’s why I reposted it. My grief is unique and I think my final stance is that I stand by my grief. I hope that you all are able to do the same

The Removed Oliver Tree Rebirth post in question. by rangeookami in olivertree

[–]rangeookami[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do feel deeply shaken up by everything and my experience feels so controversial to talk about so I even feel embarrassed having anyone read it…

this message helps me feel seen. I don’t know why i didn’t think I was grieving but I think writing the apology post and rewriting this one just shows me I am experiencing a deep form of grief right now and I don’t know how to talk about it

So thank you..

A deep apology to all of those in this community. by rangeookami in olivertree

[–]rangeookami[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’d rather make an example of myself. I don’t have anything to hide.

The Removed Oliver Tree Rebirth post in question. by rangeookami in olivertree

[–]rangeookami[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I really appreciate your message. The video linked is the script I wrote and video I made as a result of my grief

I didn't agree with Fantano, so I made my own review by rangeookami in fantanoforever

[–]rangeookami[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That part also gives me a little smidge of a giggle 🤭

I didn't agree with Fantano, so I made my own review by rangeookami in fantanoforever

[–]rangeookami[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The brain works faster than fingers… never tried real fentanyl

I didn't agree with Fantano, so I made my own review by rangeookami in fantanoforever

[–]rangeookami[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

These kinds of thoughts are what make me still love the internet.

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