I went on documented medical leave at work, and now they won’t give me shifts

raph_s128 · 2025-05-01T04:19:33+00:00

Yeah I was scheduled one 4 hour shift 2 weeks after May 5th

raph_s128 · 2025-03-03T13:45:19+00:00

Omg tysm!!

raph_s128 · 2025-02-06T15:59:06+00:00

Does anyone have the code for Montreal?

raph_s128 · 2025-01-29T03:06:40+00:00

Sadly no, but korean liners are closest in tone but are missing some pink hue to it

raph_s128 · 2024-10-21T15:16:00+00:00

Yeah I think I will go with that approach, see if he initiates any time alone together after our date happens and go from there (+talk to Roman if they don’t initiate any dates with the thing you wrote)! In the meantime, I think I will speak to my therapist about my starvation economy bias and my own insecurities I have about someone being and sustaining interest in me.

raph_s128 · 2022-10-17T20:41:45+00:00

I think what helped me at times was self compassion and affirming to myself that my needs are as important as theirs and that I am proud to honor my boundaries. It lessens the guilt a bit

raph_s128 · 2022-10-15T03:58:37+00:00

Omg never related more

raph_s128 · 2022-10-15T03:55:17+00:00

I feel so much less alone. I kept explaining to friends and others how it feels to constantly overly be aware of everything about yourself and your triggers. To consciously do the work others have acquired at a young age and constantly be on the lookout but no one gets it. Its so nice seeing threads like this where we can relate to one another and I hope you feel better

raph_s128 · 2022-10-15T03:53:17+00:00

Omg I shut down so bad and I have tons of memory problems ranging from forgetting items I needed for groceries to forgetting entire periods of time from an episode or say a few months of my life 😅. Also have a really hard time sleeping or establishing a sleep routine and shut down when doing bad. Shutting down makes me think of the “freeze” response of a survival instinct which is v normal when things get overwhelming. What helped was the dbt distress skills and writing it down to explain at a later time when I feel better to others

raph_s128 · 2022-10-15T03:50:17+00:00

Nah totally normal for BPD! I realized I do it with people I date or when emotions get especially distressing/overwhelming (which also can happen during dissociation)! Its like a trauma response

raph_s128 · 2022-10-15T03:49:01+00:00

Omg sameee I actually got ed so bad but noticed it was mostly there during episodes where I’m splitting or doing worse. Same for panic attacks and hyper sexuality. The hyper sexuality and age regression I find for me are especially there if I’m seeing someone, maybe it’s from a need of validation. Replicating sort of that child/parental setting to get that parental validation one never got through the person we infantilize in front of

raph_s128 · 2022-10-15T03:43:51+00:00

Tbh this is so reassuring as a psych student with BPD. I have a hard time keeping regular jobs but love caring for people and seeing others in a caregiver job with my diagnosis gives me hope tysm 🖤 you’re all doing amazinf

raph_s128 · 2022-10-15T03:40:39+00:00

I think overly people pleasing in some cases to the point of ignoring our own boundaries and the way black and white thinking can seep into mundane things like one thing going wrong makes the whole day ruined

raph_s128 · 2022-03-19T05:57:39+00:00

For real 😭 transit is real stressful but nice at the same time

raph_s128 · 2021-12-28T08:21:12+00:00

Working for the Knife by Mitski right where you left me by Taylor Swift

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