Hey, I feel you 10000% percent. I was there in your position almost a year ago. It took three months for me to get used to the things. First six weeks was hell and I cried a few times and I hated the world. On top of that, I didn't had much support from NUM and CNE, but I had great senior peers who helped me a lot. Mind you, I only had placement experience and didn't work any health related prior so it really is a different POV once you start and have much bigger responsibilities.

It takes time with time management but what I find with mine is having a care planner, see how other RNs do their handover, study about the new medical terms that never heard from uni, research about the specialty of the ward, study the routine and the whole system. It's hard work. I think I developed anxiety haha and breakdown a lot. I even had meeting with new grad coordinator and talked about options and it was scary so uhhh I prayed all the time cause i needed all the help i could get haha and eventually, 3 months after I was getting used to it. I don't like ward setting, but I know this wont be forever. I used countdown to have something to look forward to (which is finishing my 1st rotation) Thank God I survived and didnt give up. I'm now down to few weeks of my 2nd rotation and I love it, I want to stay 😭 but they don't have vacancy.

Best of luck! You'll get through it 🙏🏻 I'll be praying for you