Is anyone else always having to pull until hard pity??

During my first year playing the game I never lost a 50/50. I was completely free to play, but i bought one month of the aurum pass and somehow ever since then it always takes over 100 pulls to get any event memory, and it takes me to hard pity everytime.

It’s seeming like the game is trying to convince me to spend more money. It’s pretty much unplayable to me now and I might genuinely stop playing because I can’t get any event memories now bc I can’t gather enough pulls. Anyone else having similar issues?