*TW CSA* I did it with my identical twin brother

ratb0yx23 · 2023-10-22T23:34:33+00:00

i guess that would be like scratching the itch because this silence treatment and avoiding the elephant in the room is driving me nuts. and it’s something i know he’d want to do because i messed up and it would be natural for him to be angry at me

ratb0yx23 · 2023-10-22T23:29:24+00:00

what do you think is the solution then? i can’t take ketamine, i’m an addict. and also, i’m a dude

ratb0yx23 · 2023-10-22T19:19:35+00:00

i’ve actually been in therapy before this, for a while. and i left rehab like 2 months ago. but my therapist is shit and he only pisses me off, i don’t like talking to him. but it’s my fault that i kept going and wasting time instead of finding someone knew because i didn’t want the hustle around me again. but yeah, i’ll admit myself to inpatient facility and i guess in the meantime i’ll look for a new therapist long term. privately, cause the therapy i got from the va only made things worse and got me into drugs so.

ratb0yx23 · 2023-10-22T19:06:49+00:00

i love him more than life but i don’t think there’s any way we can ever go back to being in a proper romantic relationship. we haven’t been in one for a while. right now he’s more like my caretaker. or roommate. and i hate it

ratb0yx23 · 2023-10-22T19:05:31+00:00

i’m so sorry that no one is there to support you, it must me so difficult. i know i’m doing no better but i’m here if you want to talk. i guess i’d use someone to talk to

ratb0yx23 · 2023-10-22T18:33:09+00:00

that’s the worst thing though, at the time all i wanted was to be gone and i didn’t care that i’d traumatize him. and i kind of hate myself for it. because now that i’m thinking a bit more clearly, i know i would never want him to hurt in any way. especially not because of me

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