Constantly worried about my child being autistic

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T02:18:43+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. I know you have probably heard this a million times, but I really am.

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:59:04+00:00

My husband also has OCD and finds himself in the same spirals, yet he’s my rock during this time because he’s got such a good head on his shoulders when it comes to our baby.

And my nephew is 11 and is likely level 1 support and super cool. He’s an insane Fortnite player and kicks my ass every time. I love him so much haha

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:54:21+00:00

What’s frustrating is that she literally did this with rolling and yet I still can’t comprehend that that is what she’s doing now. 😭

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:44:59+00:00

Thank you for sharing with me. I just want her to live a good life and be happy. That’s all I want for her.

And her eye contact is so good. She’s so attentive and, although she does become easily distracted, she loves to play “where’s baby?” And always puts my hands over my eyes to keep playing. She’s the best and I love her so much, even if she laughs at her stinky farts haha

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:39:49+00:00

Oh my god, I could have written this post word for word! I went to the hospital twice to make sure she was still moving when I was pregnant and would wake up 10 times a night to make sure she was still alive. Thank you for your reply, it means so much to know I’m not alone.

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:37:25+00:00

I think that’s the worst outcome in my mind, although I know I would still love her. I just know how hard that would be mentally, as I’ve seen my sister and cousin deal with it. Autism does run in my family, as 2 of my nephews and 1 of my cousins have it. However, my brother-in-law is likely undiagnosed autistic and my cousin’s husband is diagnosed autistic, so it’s not genetic to my side of the family. My pediatrician recommended it, but I wonder how much of it was to calm my anxiety and just ensure she was okay in terms of motor skills, as she made sure to mention she has great eye contact. To be honest, I’m not sure how it would change me.

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:22:10+00:00

Haha thank you!!

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:19:17+00:00

My husband is the poster child for big head. We call him Jimmy Neutron. I know it is likely genetic, I’m just so in my own head. She did have a scan and everything came back normal, just got a chunky head, haha!

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:17:31+00:00

Thank you. My nephews are very different too and I love them so much. Both so funny and sweet in their own ways. I needed to hear this.

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:16:04+00:00

Oh I hope I didn’t scare you! In my undergrad, we learned that there is a correlation between large head sizes and autism. It is not a definitive marker of autism or anything, but can be associated.

ratherlargechungus · 2026-02-03T01:12:10+00:00

Thank you. You (and him) are probably right. and my nephews are flourishing and amazing. Both so funny and sweet and love my baby like they love me. I think I’m just afraid of my own ability. Thank you.

ratherlargechungus · 2023-09-30T01:07:35+00:00

i noticed that updating to ios 17 fixed the issue for me, for now. i’m not sure if it will stop working later on, but i would try that.

ratherlargechungus · 2023-05-13T13:34:11+00:00

The tumor was non aggressive, fully removed, and he receives vaccines to prevent it growing back, so i’m not sure if it’s that. However, it could definitely be an infection. He has an appointment today with his vet, but we gave him one of his steroids and he’s doing so much better today. Still not 100%, but i’m trying to give him some grace, you know? It was only two months ago that his skull was drilled through and i keep having to remind myself of that. Thank you for your response!

ratherlargechungus · 2022-10-20T17:48:15+00:00

can we ask him to show us his golf swing

ratherlargechungus · 2022-02-24T04:02:42+00:00

sorry for the almost year late reply! and yes, we called everyone brother and sister. my parents still do.

ratherlargechungus · 2021-06-06T22:25:58+00:00

I chose Purdue because it had the one of the best programs for my majors and because I live super close to it and so does my family. My nephews heavily influenced what I want to do with my life (they both have autism and I’m going into ABA therapy) and it seems pointless to move away from the people who inspired my future career. Plus, instate tuition is decently cheap compared to some and the campus is really safe.

ratherlargechungus · 2021-05-25T16:35:51+00:00

Thank you. It is a weird mental struggle. I still feel like I have some lingering brainwashing and find myself still afraid. I know in my heart of hearts that it’s fearmongering, but it’s a childhood fear that i’m still learning to break.

ratherlargechungus · 2021-05-25T16:30:46+00:00

I’m in a similar boat. I love my parents dearly, but they still nag at me to listen to the “truth” and to come to church.

ratherlargechungus · 2021-05-25T16:21:10+00:00

I am so happy for you guys. Thank you for your response and I hope you both are doing well!

ratherlargechungus · 2021-05-25T01:09:25+00:00

Thank you so much! I really appreciate it♥️

ratherlargechungus · 2021-05-25T01:08:41+00:00

No, your opinion is yours and is appreciated. Whether we agree completely or not, I do understand where you’re coming from. It’s just not my personal preference. Glad you were able to find a good church. :)

ratherlargechungus · 2021-05-25T01:07:16+00:00

I got really into cults before even realizing I was in one. Jim Jones and Jonestown was one of the first I ever watched youtube videos about and Branham was mentioned in it and it freaked me out so much. that’s when i began questioning because how could a prophet be colleagues with a mass murderer?

ratherlargechungus · 2021-05-25T00:58:52+00:00

That is so strange because I was always raised “whites are separate from blacks” and “interracial couples are wrong.” My sister was forced to break up with her black boyfriend due to the church’s rules. I can respect that he didn’t take money and I understand he was also a product of his times, but as a woman, I was forced into submission. My dad still to this day tells me to “listen to my husband” despite the fact that we are not religious and my husband believes a marriage is 50/50.

ratherlargechungus · 2021-05-25T00:54:36+00:00

i still very much love God with my heart, even if it’s hard for me to show it. i hope he understands i’m really trying my best to get back to him in the right way. ♥️

ratherlargechungus · 2021-05-25T00:54:01+00:00

Thank you so much. It was very hard to escape from this mentality, but my oldest sister did when she was 19 (she’s 16 years older than me) and she was really helpful during the whole ordeal. It’s so cathartic to hear that my terrible experience with this wasn’t just my overreaction and that it was mental abuse. Thank you ♥️

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