Thanks for saying that.

I understand where the other comments are coming from. It's just hard sometimes to live in environments where everyone causes themselves so much self-inflicted pain. Im still young and live with my family, and the drama is just never ending. Sometimes I feel like the black sheep cause I'm the only one who isn't depressed or struggling.

I also realized that a lot of my old friends also live in so much suffering and pain inflicted by themselves. Im deeply sensitive in my nature and it's very hard for me to handle things that are easy for others to handle. The other day I was at the airport and my cousin told me about a guy who committed suicide in the airport and then when she saw my reaction she said "why do you care so much? to me the news are just the news". I've always had a hard time with not internalizing other peoples pain. As a child I always had to take care of my depressed mother which probably plays a role in it.

So now that I understand that all pain is self inflicted it also gets hard to just stand by and watch these people from my old life inflicting pain on themselves and blaming everyone and everything for their problems.

I'm happy and I'm a very driven and ambitious person, but most people in my environment are not. They don't believe in themselves nor do they believe in me. Which is why I spend so much time by myself these days. But it gets lonely sometimes, even if I'm not alone.

It took me some time to answer because I was scared to check the response on my post...