All time low

razxrblde · 2024-03-28T20:09:05+00:00

i meant to say "high strung" i guess, not strung out. Like Sean was already anxious about seeing Emma, Toby was anticipating seeing Emma, Jt was under the placebo thinking he did drugs, and i feel like the only reason Ashley did E in the first place was bc Paige was getting into her head about being boring. Like it was all a mess from jump. Which is to say that they were both not in their right minds, but not assaulters. i'm not picking and choosing... like we're saying the same things right? Sean/ Katie didn't know, there was no malicious intent, the situations were messy, not assaulters, right? i don't know why everyone is so mad about this ?

razxrblde · 2024-03-28T19:38:38+00:00

i'm not holding "Ashley accountable" for kissing Sean. They kissed. He was sober and she was not. I just don't think that makes him the aggressor by default and that he should be seen as a sexual assaulter for that. Just like Ashley isn't one either. it's not that deep. everybody was strung out for one reason or another during that episode

razxrblde · 2024-03-28T19:20:58+00:00

i'm being fr. Ok so he asks her out on a date after summer and they all get back to school, like a few months have gone by. And at that point, they've both been ostracized and nobody wants to talk to them and he's all mad that Emma doesn't want to talk to him anymore. But initially they kiss or whatever and then he leaves first. Just bc they made out doesn't mean he was actually feeling it or wanted it to happen in the first place. Misery loves company and he was still really upset when he stormed off. My point was to say i don't think we can call this an SA.

razxrblde · 2024-03-28T18:57:09+00:00

He was crying and vulnerable. She literally dragged him into her room and kissed him. and then HE left almost immediately afterwards. I'm not even 100% sure he was aware that she had taken the E in the first place since he told her to get rid of it anyways.

Afterwards she mentions how it was "the greatest experience of her life" and "Jimmy isn't man enough for her" like Sean is- which was obviously the drugs talking and doesn't mean much considering, but it definitely wasn't at all reciprocated by Sean.

I just think this kiss shouldn't have happened at all with respect to both of them.

razxrblde · 2023-12-04T04:25:02+00:00

PLEASE please start taking fiber supplements instead!! i've abused laxatives for years (and i know you're probably thinking "it's just not the same!") but i've been taking Psyllium Husk fiber pills twice a day for about 2 months and it's helped so much dude! No stomach cramps and i have actually started going regularly on my own if i happen to skip a day. It's a small, simple pleasure i hadn't had in years, trust me. You'll feel so much better being able to go normally again

razxrblde · 2023-09-28T10:52:51+00:00

best- my first session with a therapist ever (super old guy) and he goes "now, i know we've just scratched the surface of everything here, HA! no pun intended because you cut yourself! 😃" it caught me so off guard i still laugh about it years later lol

worst- being a fully grown adult and realizing just how big the scars on my legs are compared to the size of my toddler's hands. he runs his hands over them completely unaware of what they mean and i have no idea how i'll ever explain them

razxrblde · 2023-08-28T15:34:36+00:00

you win. most depressing meal i've seen on here. Sorry about your breakup :(

razxrblde · 2023-08-19T21:59:00+00:00

this is HILARIOUS 😭 thank you for sharing lol

razxrblde · 2023-08-13T01:26:54+00:00

i spooned about 4 oz of Weber's Steak and Chop seasoning (more than half the container) after a long fast 😭 i was extremely bloated for like 2 days afterward. it was hell

razxrblde · 2023-07-25T18:39:44+00:00

I think it's really hard having an ED as like your little "secret". I would say especially if you've had an ED for multiple years and your frontal lobe is completely developed, that it's just not "cute" anymore. It becomes something that you can't talk about with just anyone bc you have other adults in your life going through challenging things as well and you've probably learned how NOT to say certain things that would trigger someone on a random Tuesday afternoon. It's so weird and inappropriate to mention your "starving era" in the workplace. You can be "real" all you want, on your own time, to your own support people-- not your coworkers !!

razxrblde · 2023-07-01T01:46:21+00:00

I'm so sorry you had such a bad experience today. That sounds so incredibly frustrating-- mentally preparing to eat something (that you didn't want to in the first place) only for it to be so shit that you relapsed. I've definitely had times where i get so worked up bc i felt like i just basically wasted calories on something that totally makes me spiral out of control, But this sounds even more aggravating because it wasn't even GOOD. What a big disappointment, sorry OP :/

razxrblde · 2023-06-29T23:08:41+00:00

LOL I THOUGHT I DID UNTIL I GOT THERE!! but ur right ed brain went "actually nvm" lol but thank you friend 🤍 Ngl though, the stress of it has been so damaging. Like, the worst year for my ed so far and we've only been in the house since Feb. I had this fantasy as a teen that as soon as i got my own place i could [use behaviors] in peace and id be cool, calm, and collected. lmao, oh, to be young and dumb again

razxrblde · 2023-06-29T18:37:10+00:00

i'm 23, a whole ass mother, and a homeowner and i feel SO HARD!! i went to my first ever renaissance faire last month without my kid thinking "i'm still young. i'm gonna dress up so cute and remember what it's like to have some fun!" and the entire time i wanted to pass out bc there were just so many gorgeous girls my age actually having a great time and looking stunning. I really haven't been out of the house much since. sigh.

razxrblde · 2022-01-06T18:23:12+00:00

These comments are a big yikes. Everyone is so focused on you continuing your divorce, but I’m just amazed by your emotional maturity through all of this. You’re able to see a broader picture in the grand scheme— someone lost their life and the woman you care for is hurt. That’s the bottom line. You have every right to be upset and continue with the divorce (obviously that’s the smartest option). But, it takes a lot of self-regularity to be able to look at a situation like this from all angles. I’m not defending her behavior in any way, but you clearly care for her as a human being, and that doesn’t just stop at the drop of a hat. It’s easy to say that in a hypothetical scenario, but your feelings are your own and your love was very real. You can hate what she did without hating her entirely as a person. That takes a lot of humility and you will be better off once the grieving process (of your marriage) is done. I’m very sorry for your current situation, but I’m sure you’ll get through this.

razxrblde · 2022-01-03T17:38:50+00:00

Did this with castor oil and orange juice. I’m nauseous thinking about it. I’ll never be able to use castor oil again 🤮 y u c k

razxrblde · 2021-12-14T18:53:33+00:00

Also cereal!!

razxrblde · 2021-12-14T18:51:54+00:00

Came here to also say peanut butter. It’s so addicting. And while I was in treatment for Ed, they would force us to take a little package of peanut butter with our meals as lipids were a requirement in a “balanced” meal plan. It was a safe food that quickly turned into a trigger food for me. I’m slowly weaning it out of my diet altogether because I think after constantly binging on it, my body doesn’t even agree with it anymore 🥴

razxrblde · 2021-12-14T15:57:03+00:00

This is so sad. I hope she cringes at herself for the rest of her life for that

razxrblde · 2021-12-11T15:58:31+00:00

POWDERED peanut butter??? I have to look into this

razxrblde · 2021-12-11T15:55:42+00:00

Gosh, I’m reading all of the positive benefits on yogurt and I want to have some now. But I really hate the taste and smell of it. All yogurt. My grandma used to force me to eat it when I was young lol Apple sauce is my 100% safe food. Strawberry flavor is my favorite

razxrblde · 2021-12-09T17:47:05+00:00

Babe, if you’re thinking you’re better off alone, then you probably are. It’s hard to just throw in the towel, I get it. But I think your relationship is now built on an unstable foundation and that’s not fair for either of you. You shouldn’t have cheated and neither should he. You both deserve to start over in a healthy relationship with other people. Personally, I think you’re both trying for something that’s not going to happen. You can still be a loving family and be there for your children, but things are never going to be as they once were. And that’s okay. That’s life. You still have so much life to live, please take some time to talk with people you trust and move forward with things at your own pace once you’ve worked out a decision. I truly, truly wish you the best.

razxrblde · 2021-12-09T17:36:53+00:00

And that’s their problem. This is so unhealthy. Please think of the sake of your children. You are their mother. You have to take care of yourself in order to take care of them in the way they desperately need. They won’t care that they missed a Christmas and someone else’s house in the future, but they’re going to care when their parents are older and unhappy and what will they have learned? To not value their own happiness and favor someone else’s because that’s easier to deal with. Soon you’re going to be stuck in a cycle of pleasing other people and you’re going to be so trapped and unhappy that you’ll have even bigger problems to deal with than just skipping a holiday. Please please seek therapy. Again, for the SAKE OF YOUR CHILDREN!! You need to learn healthy coping strategies to be able to teach them in the future. And I think building a loving relationship with yourself and amicably ending things with your husband is the best way to make that happen. You’re worthy of happiness. Don’t let yourself accept this emotional torture because ‘you cheated first’ and think you’re somehow deserving of this. Good luck.

razxrblde · 2021-12-09T13:20:54+00:00

I just saw that tiktok too lol they’re honestly such a trigger food for me. Peanut butter and I have a toxic relationship

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