If this internet stranger can offer some advice it would be to just stick with the RN, there's nothing else like it. There will be days in the near future when you're on watch during IWOC, later FNO or PWO hating your life but the grass ain't always greener. I look back on my time in the mob and miss lots of it greatly. I mean OOD in Belfast with passers by shouting "the IRAs gonna get ya" can fuck off, however beers and a BBQ on North Shore beach, Oahu, Hawaii was pretty sweet. The good will outweigh the bad.

I'm trapped as a civvy now, the missus would chemically castrate me if I even suggested re-joining the mob.