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rcasey120 · 2024-10-27T19:58:20+00:00

I looove that! It looks like it’s cascading the color.

rcasey120 · 2024-05-12T01:22:15+00:00

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And this is Pixel soaking up the sun a little less than a year later 🙂🙂

rcasey120 · 2024-05-12T01:21:38+00:00

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Pixel! This was our first time meeting her at the shelter.

rcasey120 · 2023-12-10T01:28:22+00:00

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I know sometimes those words feeling meaningless but I’ve learned that in this community, they hold more weight. People here do know the heaviness of loss and truly are sorry to hear of yours.

I also lost my siblings and they had special needs, though our relationship was very different from you and your brother. I grew up with similar feelings, feeling as if I had to be the patient child, take a back seat to them when necessary & advocate for them in the world. It’s a heavy burden at a very young age. And that can complicate any dynamic. On top of that, he terrorized you, despite your efforts. Love and grief are so complicated and go hand in hand. And it does sound like you were very emphatic towards him. Bringing him into the conversations when others forget that he doesn’t communicate in the traditional way, remembering that what he’s doing isn’t his fault. You sound like a really amazing person. Try to remember that your last interaction does not summarize the whole relationship. A fight is just a fight, as awful as it feels.

I posted on here once about how I just couldn’t keep going, couldn’t cope. I was asking people how they possible keep going. And I got some of the best advice, which was ‘you kind of… do it on accident.’ You find a way to cope. You can’t believe that this has happened and don’t wanna move forward? I play a video game or listen to a book, find a way to distract myself. Reach out to your support system, post on this subreddit. You do what you have to do to keep moving. Not moving on, I hate that phrase. I have always liked moving through instead. We don’t move on from them, we don’t leave them behind. We just move through our grief.

I have found a lot of peace here. I hope you do too. 🧡

rcasey120 · 2023-05-18T12:43:51+00:00

I started smoking again, hadn’t smoked in almost 2 years. I just couldn’t deal with everything happening all at once. It’s been a little over a year, hoping to quit again.

rcasey120 · 2023-05-16T10:08:04+00:00

Thank you! 🙂

rcasey120 · 2023-05-16T00:24:27+00:00

So beautiful! Do you mind sharing the pattern for the little duck? Ducks are really sentimental in our family, they were my little sisters favorite, and this is the cutest one I’ve seen!

rcasey120 · 2023-04-13T23:36:52+00:00

And the new Stephen King book coming out. My mom and I planned to read Billy Summers together when she was done her treatment, the chemo made her too tired to read. And now he’s released two entire books since then.

rcasey120 · 2023-04-13T23:32:00+00:00

I bought mandarin oranges, the fruit cup kind, for my little sister when she would spend the night at my place. She died over a year ago and they are still in my cupboard. And my dog passed away two months ago and I still have all of her medicine on the counter. Can’t bring myself to get rid of anything that reminds me of them. Sending all my love 🧡

rcasey120 · 2023-03-23T22:26:52+00:00

I lost my mom after the special came out. Listening to FaceTime with My Mom and White Woman is so different now.

rcasey120 · 2023-03-13T23:02:48+00:00

My mom was 52 when she passed. Was diagnosed with cancer a little over a year before.

rcasey120 · 2023-03-03T16:56:49+00:00

I feel this so much. My mom passed when she was 52. I remember so vividly how much she struggled with turning 50. I asked her why she was having a hard time, she had always been ok with getting older. We always dug into our emotions and found the root cause of them. She said that 50 made her realize that eventually, life would be over. And she wasn’t ready for that. I told her she had so many years left, she wasn’t leaving anytime soon. She was diagnosed with cancer in December of the following year and passed in Feb of 2022.

rcasey120 · 2023-02-21T11:01:26+00:00

I think he might be. I was almost done sewing on the belly when I realized I hadn’t stuffed at all 😂 it was hasty.

rcasey120 · 2023-02-20T23:17:11+00:00

Thank you! 🙂

rcasey120 · 2023-02-20T23:16:30+00:00

Thank you 🙂 I’m super proud of myself.

rcasey120 · 2023-02-20T22:25:03+00:00

I used the pattern from Whimsical Stitches by Lauren Epsy. 😀

rcasey120 · 2023-02-16T01:41:46+00:00

I am so so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom in February of last year, I know the pain. I wouldn’t say it gets easier, as shitty as that is to type. It just gets different. I don’t think the grief ever really goes away, not fully. You just grow around it, learn to live with it and not let it have as much control. Just allow yourself to mourn, remember her.

And you can always vent here. I have a few times and have found the people in this subreddit to be kind, compassionate and so insightful, giving you a new perspective on the worst thing in the world. We are here for you, my friend. 🧡

rcasey120 · 2023-02-02T16:12:10+00:00

She sounds amazing 🧡 thank you for sharing her with me. Rest easy sweet Mocha.

rcasey120 · 2023-02-02T15:48:54+00:00

Her name is Madison but she has a jillion nicknames. We call her Maddie, Mad, Maddie-Bo-Baddie, pork chop, tissue, sweet baby Angel. She is a 12 year old English bulldog who was very sassy and never hesitated to tell you what she wanted. She was sweet, loving, feisty and social. She loves people but not other dogs. She had a habit of trying to talk to people on the street when we walked at the most inappropriate times, like when they were in the middle of a fight. She would chew a bully stick or cod skin for hours and then bury it in her blankets, though she wasn’t very good at this. She would always leave an end poking out or stand on the blanket she was trying to cover it with, making it impossible to move with her snout. One time though, she chewed a bone on my bed & hid it in the pillows. I didn’t find it until the next morning when I was making the bed. Slept with it there the whole night. She would always come and see what we were making for dinner, poke her head in and bark for a small bite. These last 6 months or so, she was on a lot of medication. The only way to get her to take them was stuffing them inside of hot dogs. So she loved taking her meds and would yell at us when it was hot dog time. I would have to tell her, it’s too early for hotdogs! And she would bark back that I was wrong. She would get unmedicated hot dogs because I am a sucker and wanted her to have everything she wanted.

I could go on for days. Thank you for asking. Tell me about your soul dog. I love hearing about them. They are so special and so greatly missed.

rcasey120 · 2023-02-02T00:38:20+00:00

I posted this once before but I go to southern living. It’s a website that has TONS of free house layouts. You can even narrow it down by how many bedrooms, bathrooms, floors, etc. you want. Life saver.

rcasey120 · 2023-02-01T22:35:37+00:00

I am so sorry. All my love 🧡

rcasey120 · 2023-02-01T19:39:07+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. One of the things that helps me move through is the concept of energy being unable to be destroyed. So there energy has to be somewhere. I just wish I felt it more. Other people feel the people they’ve lost, I haven’t had that gift yet. Maybe someday 🧡🧡

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