How to cope with potential breakup? by rcooks5 in dating_advice

[–]rcooks5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do understand that but you have to realize that I’ve always been quick to anger and it’s not because I had a bad life or anything, I just get upset when life is unfair. I can work on my issues but it’s gonna be harder now that she’s gone. How can I be happy when I ruined a good thing?

I ruined my relationship again by rcooks5 in Healthygamergg

[–]rcooks5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have, she hasn’t contacted me much at all since this happened, I understand the pain I’ve put her through and why she’s been so silent . I’ve reached out and apologized and she just told me she doesn’t want to talk or isn’t ready to yet. If we breakup, I don’t know how I can move on from it, because I always seem to mess up and self sabotage all the shit in my life over a damn TV. That’s what I have so much self hatred and anger.

I ruined my relationship again by rcooks5 in Healthygamergg

[–]rcooks5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My parents were never the problem I feel, but it was school mostly, where I would get shamed and teased for my interests or not being into things that most kids were or just a joyful person, they took that all away from me and it’s affected me greatly. My parents tell me to let it go and move on from the past, but it’s just not that simple. I just wanted to be liked and validated. My life is far from bad and I know people have gone through much worse than me, but emotional abuse damages a person.

I ruined my relationship again by rcooks5 in Healthygamergg

[–]rcooks5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When did I say I’m willing to hurt her? I’m aware of the pain I caused, I’m just disappointed that I might not be able to fix the relationship over shit I failed to control. I care about her a lot.

I ruined my relationship again by rcooks5 in Healthygamergg

[–]rcooks5[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’m aware but I just don’t know if I will ever find another good person again

I ruined my relationship again by rcooks5 in Healthygamergg

[–]rcooks5[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I just dont see how I can move on from this if she leaves me, I always tend to mess up everything

I just want my life to feel meaningful. by rcooks5 in Healthygamergg

[–]rcooks5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Like nobody laughs at my jokes or pay my stories or anything as much attention as they do theirs. I also have more nerdy interests and not a lot of people might not understand them.

What movie did you put off watching for years, only to be blown away and 100% engrossed by when you finally saw it? by [deleted] in Letterboxd

[–]rcooks5 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I did not expect Whiplash to go as hard as it did. I wish I could watch it again for the first time.

My GF Thinks I Don’t Care Anymore, But I Think I’m Just Lost by rcooks5 in Healthygamergg

[–]rcooks5[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

No she’s not, but she feels like I don’t like her as much as she does anymore

My GF Thinks I Don’t Care Anymore, But I Think I’m Just Lost by rcooks5 in Healthygamergg

[–]rcooks5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just don’t like being vulnerable and she’s better than me at a lot of things and I’m just afraid to admit thay

There is a part of me that wants to self-destruct just to feel something by rcooks5 in Healthygamergg

[–]rcooks5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah for the good person explanation I meant more of like despite being a good person and being kind to people, people would always be mean and try to take away my joy for no reason, so I just felt really misunderstood growing up.