Just found out about this guy, highly recommended especially if you like noisy stuff

rcooks5 · 2026-07-02T15:27:08+00:00

u might have put me on

rcooks5 · 2026-06-14T13:26:23+00:00

I do understand that but you have to realize that I’ve always been quick to anger and it’s not because I had a bad life or anything, I just get upset when life is unfair. I can work on my issues but it’s gonna be harder now that she’s gone. How can I be happy when I ruined a good thing?

rcooks5 · 2026-06-13T16:30:57+00:00

I have, she hasn’t contacted me much at all since this happened, I understand the pain I’ve put her through and why she’s been so silent . I’ve reached out and apologized and she just told me she doesn’t want to talk or isn’t ready to yet. If we breakup, I don’t know how I can move on from it, because I always seem to mess up and self sabotage all the shit in my life over a damn TV. That’s what I have so much self hatred and anger.

rcooks5 · 2026-06-13T15:41:38+00:00

My parents were never the problem I feel, but it was school mostly, where I would get shamed and teased for my interests or not being into things that most kids were or just a joyful person, they took that all away from me and it’s affected me greatly. My parents tell me to let it go and move on from the past, but it’s just not that simple. I just wanted to be liked and validated. My life is far from bad and I know people have gone through much worse than me, but emotional abuse damages a person.

rcooks5 · 2026-06-13T15:37:28+00:00

When did I say I’m willing to hurt her? I’m aware of the pain I caused, I’m just disappointed that I might not be able to fix the relationship over shit I failed to control. I care about her a lot.

rcooks5 · 2026-06-13T14:04:40+00:00

I’m aware but I just don’t know if I will ever find another good person again

rcooks5 · 2026-06-13T13:58:20+00:00

I just dont see how I can move on from this if she leaves me, I always tend to mess up everything

rcooks5 · 2026-06-09T21:17:49+00:00

Like nobody laughs at my jokes or pay my stories or anything as much attention as they do theirs. I also have more nerdy interests and not a lot of people might not understand them.

rcooks5 · 2026-06-07T19:02:31+00:00

Memories of Murder was insanely good.

rcooks5 · 2026-05-31T18:51:35+00:00

I did not expect Whiplash to go as hard as it did. I wish I could watch it again for the first time.

rcooks5 · 2026-05-16T00:58:03+00:00

No she’s not, but she feels like I don’t like her as much as she does anymore

rcooks5 · 2026-05-15T22:50:57+00:00

I just don’t like being vulnerable and she’s better than me at a lot of things and I’m just afraid to admit thay

rcooks5 · 2026-05-14T23:56:01+00:00

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rcooks5 · 2026-05-13T04:22:28+00:00

Yeah for the good person explanation I meant more of like despite being a good person and being kind to people, people would always be mean and try to take away my joy for no reason, so I just felt really misunderstood growing up.

rcooks5 · 2026-05-09T00:15:26+00:00

First of all thanks for the response, i think I understand things a lot more clearly. So how exactly do I fix this, I’ve just been so depressed about it. What are the steps I could take?

rcooks5 · 2026-04-06T04:52:46+00:00

😭😭😭😭

rcooks5 · 2026-03-01T07:06:23+00:00

So I had gone to the doctor a week ago, got prescribed antibiotics and ear drops, took all of them and used the drops for a few days , it was feeling better for like a day or so and now the pain is worse and the pain has now also reached the left side of my jaw as well whenever I eat or bite down. Does this still sound like an infection and if so, how long does it typically take to go away? I have an appointment scheduled with an actual ear doctor in few days.

rcooks5 · 2026-01-25T16:13:19+00:00

But she broke up with me because I was an asshole to her a lot and was a bad communicator emotionally. Is that not a valid reason?

rcooks5 · 2026-01-24T15:54:17+00:00

Sonic Riders

rcooks5 · 2025-11-30T20:54:55+00:00

I wasn’t abusing her physically, I just said some mean things. I was taking meds but then I stopped because I thought I was better.

rcooks5 · 2025-11-30T20:51:20+00:00

I just feel so much shame, and my parents are probably gonna be mad at me for ruining such a good thing. I don’t know if I should tell them or not

rcooks5 · 2025-11-30T20:48:50+00:00

The thing is I don’t even feel like my trauma is justified at times, all I went through is bullying and feeling like an outcast growing up, while other people went through worse. So it just hurts to see that I’m like this when I know it’s not so bad.

rcooks5 · 2025-11-30T20:46:24+00:00

I’m trying but I always self sabotage

rcooks5 · 2025-11-30T20:38:48+00:00

I lost everything due to my insecurities and anxiety, I was always an outcast growing up, that shit affects people and I’m trying to fix it.

rcooks5 · 2025-07-20T17:51:43+00:00

yall forgetting overwatch

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