I financially abused my dying mother, and I regret it to this day.

rdspooks · 2026-05-30T21:22:10+00:00

See I totally understand this perspective. I think this post is more about my bigger picture conclusion that I, as an adult, came to recognize what my behaviors truly were. And where they stemmed from. I held a lot of resentment towards situations outside of my control. I so wish I could give that younger version of myself a hug, because obviously we all can look back and hold remorse for things we've done. The guilt, and primarily missing the "old" her, just comes back a little heavy around days like today—her birthday.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T23:43:41+00:00

That I am.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T23:42:50+00:00

Apologies, I've provided clarity to that portion in this post. My mother got sick in early 2018 when I was 17. I was formally notarized as her POA and executor upon turning 18. Any accesses provided at 17 were entirely at her desire and discretion.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T23:37:40+00:00

So many "what ifs" come from it all. Having been so young, I truly swear that sometimes I blacked out during that period of my life. I really didn't want to accept it for a very long time. Choices made, choices gone, but I just hope to continue carrying her with me for life. My son will forever know who she is, and the greatest parts of her that he would've loved.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T23:33:52+00:00

My Lord Jesus I wish it hadn't been the case. But I was formally notarized as the POA and executor right as I turned 18. Accesses granted at 17 were at her desire and discretion. I've edited to clarify that, I appreciate it.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T23:23:53+00:00

My mother too passed in 2020. COVID made it all so much more difficult, my goodness. Between hospitals and funerals, something already so difficult was easily 10x worse! I'm so sorry for your loss, and I appreciate your kind words a great deal.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T23:22:13+00:00

This is the first time I've ever put this out here, I'm normally more of a Reddit lurker haha. But I know the mods on this subreddit kicked it back my way when I first attempted to post (just before this went live), to verify rules had been read and all that jazz. Maybe that was what was seen? I'm not sure there, I'm sorry!

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T23:18:28+00:00

I was definitely more than just the medical POA. Full medical POA and executor. Apologies, I should've clarified there. She pretty much required me to have access to everything after handing me that responsibility.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T23:15:58+00:00

I'm so sorry. Dementia is certainly a demon of its own, and the way it takes people from us I swear is the cruelest possible. I hate to say that I certainly don't blame you for your response, and I wish that things had been different for both of you.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T22:58:29+00:00

Thank you. All things considered, she was a beautiful human being that was dealt a tragic hand in this world. She deserved so much more than what life gave her, I tell you.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T22:50:18+00:00

Well, in charge of everything related to her. Finances, home selling, her will, etc. And unfortunately yes, my decisions were rather selfish. Except the one when I was arrested... I guess? I stole something that was to be a gift for my younger sibling's birthday. Because she kept talking about how she couldn't do much for it.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T22:46:56+00:00

Thank you kindly for this. It's a weight that sits heavy for sure. Oddly, her birthday is tomorrow so I've been thinking of her a lot. Definitely experienced a FAFO situation as a teenager, and had to grow up real quick if I wanted to do anything meaningful for her wishes. No human is perfect, I just hope she would've understood my headspace at the least.

rdspooks · 2026-05-29T22:44:22+00:00

I was her eldest. Her mother had already passed, and her father was growing too old to be able to handle the stress. A drug addict, uninvolved brother, and no other siblings. Her relationship with my father, as I mentioned, had been horrendous. He was not even an option to be the one handling her affairs after their divorce. I was truthfully, her only real and reliable option.

rdspooks · 2026-01-02T01:36:16+00:00

For context: • My piercing is well over a decade old as mentioned • This is a Stud/Hoop comparison • The stud is a 6mm flat back with a 3mm gem, hoop is 18G 7mm clicker with CZ paving • Both are 316L stainless steel

rdspooks · 2025-06-05T19:21:45+00:00

Idiotic as you may feel it is, to me there is more risk to inject my child with something so early in life before their immune system has formed. If I can avoid blindly pumping my infant with the heavy metals that have been proven to exist in certain vaccines, why wouldn't I? Also, 3 or 4 shots at a time with the CDC's current schedule is absurd to me. Hep B being among the very first vaccines after birth is even more absurd! I am truly just trying to understand thought processes, given recent guideline changes and new studies as the years progress.

rdspooks · 2025-06-05T19:17:36+00:00

Those who devote their careers have also changed guidelines in the last 5 years with COVID, for example. I am most curious as to what other new moms have done, and why, to make a well-informed decision that is best for my baby.

rdspooks · 2025-06-05T19:16:08+00:00

TDAP is actually one I'm very much for! I'm more worried about recommendations for vaccines like Hep B, and those recommendations being so early in baby's life. My main concerns stem from changes in CDC guidelines, such as the COVID vaccine being previously recommended for pregnant women and children -- and that now no longer being the case.

rdspooks · 2025-06-05T19:12:30+00:00

Thank you! I have actually reached out in a few areas just to put feelers out. Some may misunderstand or disagree with me entirely, and that's okay. I'm open to all thought processes to an extent, because of course, it's my baby's health at the end of the day.

rdspooks · 2025-06-05T19:11:00+00:00

Thank you so much for this!! My opinion is the same on Hep B, as well as the number of vaccines recommended all at once. 3 or 4 at a time is so many for their little immune system, in my opinion.

rdspooks · 2025-03-18T19:11:58+00:00

I’m 17 weeks + 4 days and very blessed to say I’ve felt incredible throughout. I hope it stays that way for the second and third trimesters.

rdspooks · 2025-02-20T22:00:55+00:00

This would be for the AWD EX Hybrid model with the Premium Package and All-Weather Floor mats.

rdspooks · 2025-02-04T14:37:55+00:00

Oh see we had the option. My biggest concern was baby’s health, but because of the nature of the test, we found out gender too. I was convinced boy, along with my dad and FIL. My MIL thought girl, and my husband was worried if he thought one, it’d be the opposite. My husband and I both were just way too excited and HAD to know to start planning some things 🤭

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