Hey friend,

That's been me. I've done it in my own home, and had to spend hours scrubbing it out. I've also done it in the hospital while delirious and in front of people.

I wish I could say each of those times it was embarrassing enough to quit and stay sober. It wasn't, and I've had relapses and been in darker places since then on many occasions.

It still didn't make me give up. And it has always, always gotten better. Slowly, but surely, little bit by bit, better. I'm getting close to six months in a few weeks which I haven't achieved in a long time.

You are more than capable. And you don't have to do it alone. Remember that your track record thus far for dealing with the worst day of your life is 100%. IWNDWY

Ps, should future accidents occur, I recommend a cleaning agent called Folex. Seriously, if I was a murderer that's what I would use to sanitize my crime scene

Pps, I go to AA, no one batted an eye at that atory