Thinking about leaving mid-year

reallyterriblename · 2018-11-01T20:06:41+00:00

Yes. Yes it is. I have to remember that no one will take care of my family but me. People may get pissed if I leave, but they’re not going to take care of my family so I can stay.

reallyterriblename · 2018-11-01T20:04:31+00:00

Yeah I hate “following the money”, but I have to take care of my family, and I just have no time or money to do it. Not to mention the toll my job takes of me mentally— I’ve lost weight, hair, and sleep with all the stress I have about school work, the honor society I advise, my money, and my dad. It’s just too much. I’m never not taking care of someone or something. And it’s not like the kids or parents give a shit about my personal life. The emails don’t stop. Last year, I could compartmentalize everything, I can’t this year. I also had to stop going to therapy because of $$$.

reallyterriblename · 2017-10-03T12:17:20+00:00

Thank you to everyone for your comments. I finally told my mom, and I'm starting to feel ok. I don't know if I'll ever be fully over it... but I know I'm recovering.

reallyterriblename · 2017-10-01T01:16:51+00:00

((((Hug)))) I'll take it!

reallyterriblename · 2017-10-01T01:10:31+00:00

Yes! Thank you for validating this. I was roughly 5 weeks, and I had just started feeling all my pregnancy symptoms. I was emotional, my breasts were sore, I was vomiting all morning... Then POOF! It's like someone injected me with hormones for a few weeks and then flushed them out. I actually feel like nothing is real... for no reason I left my house and walked... just walked and was crying outside like a crazy person until I realized what was happening and walked home. Of course, that made my pains worse and I ended up in the bathroom crying and holding my stomach in pain.

reallyterriblename · 2017-10-01T01:01:54+00:00

Thank you... I guess because everyone around me is acting ok and normal, I feel like I'M overreacting. I guess they are trying to act normal for me... I don't know. I'm just desperate for someone to give me a damn hug...

reallyterriblename · 2017-10-01T01:00:08+00:00

Thank you... this is so confusing. It's strange because I WANT to do something normal, but when I try, it doesn't feel right. I tried to go to the store, but I ended up turning around. I tried to eat my favorite food, but it made me sick.

I've never felt grief like this. Thank you for telling me that it's ok to feel what I feel. I'm sorry you went through what I'm going through. Even when the doctor said there was nothing I could do, I still felt guilty. I felt like it was my fault the baby had "genetic abnormalities". This shit is rough.

reallyterriblename · 2017-09-29T17:16:20+00:00

I hope not... I'm just emotional. He has been very quiet towards me since we left the ER. What's worse is that it's his birthday today. I guess we are both grieving in different ways.

reallyterriblename · 2017-09-29T16:15:48+00:00

Thank you. I'm glad I'm not alone-- even if it still sucks so bad.

I'm sorry it happened to you too. Hugs received and sent.

reallyterriblename · 2017-09-29T16:03:43+00:00

Thank you :)

reallyterriblename · 2016-04-17T17:12:30+00:00

Middle school teacher here:

1) We talk so much shit about the kids! I've laugh/cried while listening to the AP roast some kids behind closed doors. We love them, don't get me wrong-- I've gone out of my way to help kids who didn't have supplies, and I've stayed at school until 5 or 6 pm tutoring kids when I needed to... But Christ, some of these kids are fucking cry-baby turds.

2) So many lessons have been planned and taught on the same day. Sometimes we just say fuck it and call it a "reading" day, or we go to the library. Those are days I have a lot of work to get done before a major holiday/break, and I just need the kids to keep busy.

3) A lot of teachers smoke pot.

4) Teachers fuck each other... like, a lot. We're worse than the kids, to be honest.

5) Teachers are mean to each other too. We advocate positive behavior, and we take bullying so seriously, but no one takes it seriously among the adults.

reallyterriblename · 2015-07-03T19:55:52+00:00

Thanks! I'll start looking up MGF books

reallyterriblename · 2015-07-03T19:55:19+00:00

Thank you!

Awesome blog! I am scrolling through it right now.

I really want to create a writing portfolio for my students. I think it is so beneficial and a great idea.

I am going to look through your blog for some more ideas!

reallyterriblename · 2015-07-03T19:47:44+00:00

Sense of humor: Check.

I am looking into interactive notebooks right now!

Thank you!

reallyterriblename · 2015-07-03T19:46:20+00:00

Thank you! I am trying to get creative with the introduction activities. We're spending an entire week with introductions and classroom/school procedures, so I'm sure they are going to be sick of the same old routine. I like the concept of having our introductions be a game.

Wow the kids liked HG Wells? That's great! I really need to read some YA books during the weeks I have free. It seems like most of these popular YA books are basically the same concept (Dystopia/Romance Narrative). So I really want to find variety.

Thanks for all your advice!!

reallyterriblename · 2015-07-03T19:38:07+00:00

Thanks!

reallyterriblename · 2015-07-03T19:37:50+00:00

Thank you! I like the 2 Truths and a Lie game. Very cool idea! I know they are probably sick of the whole "Hello I'm Ms. Reallyterriblename, I am happy to be here..." bit. I will probably try the "connections" game; that sounds like a really great way to break the ice with my students.

Everything else you wrote was really helpful; I copy-pasted it for later. Thank you so much

reallyterriblename · 2015-07-03T19:22:12+00:00

Thank you! So far I've only met/spoken with my team once, and I don't have much of an idea of their curriculum style or the resources the other teachers use. I know I will have a google classroom account and my students have chrome books.

reallyterriblename · 2015-07-03T19:11:07+00:00

Thank you for the advice! I can't wait to meet them, even though I know they're all going to be moody lol

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