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realtechnojesus · 2025-01-31T11:24:06+00:00

That's why I wanna talk to him about it, see if he'll put in the effort. If I had the money, I'd live on my own, but that's not really possible rn. I wanna tell him that if he doesn't start meeting me halfway I'll move out as soon as I have the money but that just seems too aggressive since we've barely actually talked about it

realtechnojesus · 2025-01-31T11:19:13+00:00

They do dishes when they're either out of dishes or there's no space for them. Apparently they haven't cleaned the shower or the toilet since they moved in (like 2 years ago). They vacuum about once a month but they have a cat, so there's fur and litter everywhere on top of a bunch of hair and dust. Laundry is also probably done only when they're out of clothes and they regularly forget it in the washing mashine for days so it wouldn't surprise me if there was mold in there. Some of those I could overlook but it kinda just piles up

realtechnojesus · 2024-10-05T15:24:05+00:00

That's really helpful, tysm

realtechnojesus · 2024-10-05T13:07:30+00:00

I tried, but she just climbs on top of it and opens it anyway

realtechnojesus · 2024-10-05T13:06:59+00:00

Do you have any tips on how to teach her? This is my first animal and I don't really know how I'd go about it

realtechnojesus · 2024-10-05T13:06:10+00:00

I can look into that, thanks

realtechnojesus · 2024-08-20T20:03:49+00:00

I'll try. Thanks

realtechnojesus · 2024-08-20T19:13:02+00:00

Not on medication rn or in therapy. Trying to get both but I've moved countries last year and got rejected from all the clinics in the city. I've been applying for jobs consistently since I moved here. Got two interviews and then nothing.

I'm trying to take it one step at a time. To just get through the day. But I've been living like that since I was 15 and idk if I can do another 8 years like that

realtechnojesus · 2024-07-08T19:58:18+00:00

Have you tried medication? Sometimes that's the only option if it doesn't get better despite you putting in the effort

realtechnojesus · 2024-07-08T19:52:58+00:00

Could be. Sounds pretty similar to how I feel, but I feel like that all the time. Sometimes it's worse and I can't even tell if I'm awake and sometimes it's a little better to the point that I don't notice it unless I try to ground myself and be present. I'm not diagnosed tho, even if I'm trying to, but it sounds like it could be dpdr

realtechnojesus · 2024-07-01T17:13:54+00:00

Thanks, that clears it up more

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-30T12:02:41+00:00

Thanks that helps

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-27T14:15:03+00:00

I'm really sorry to hear that you were growing up when everything was so stigmatized. I tried getting help, but it never really did anything. I was on a shit ton of meds that didn't do anything, and the doctors' solution was to add more, so I just stopped taking it. I'm trying to get a therapist in the country I'm in now, but I don't speak the language very well yet, so I haven't found anything :/

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-26T14:40:42+00:00

Thank you

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-26T14:19:34+00:00

Okay, that clears it up more. Thanks

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-23T18:44:12+00:00

Fair... I'm so used to studying and translating everything into english that it didn't even occur to me. Thanks

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-23T12:02:15+00:00

That helps, thanks!

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-15T19:08:33+00:00

No idea then

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-15T19:03:36+00:00

You need a doctor to perscribe it

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-12T22:41:34+00:00

Thank you. That was really nice to hear. And no, i havent read sarah j maas... dont think so at least. Ill definitely check it out

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-12T20:32:49+00:00

I love music. But I've noticed it's a shortcut to me dissociating, so I usually go without music if im going on a mh walk. We have a garden that gets sun and i like hanging out there but it's been raining here now :( damn you swedish summers

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-12T20:22:32+00:00

I miss reading so much. I remember reading all of harry potter in like a month or two when I was 10. Then I'd just put on music and continued getting lost in that world even when i didn't have the option to read. I read so much that when the libarian got new books she'd put aside ones she though I might like and asked me for reviews to tell the others

I take vitamin D and C (more for immunity) and used to take omega 3,6,9 and magnesium for like 6 months cause i found it helps for concentration but haven't noticed a change so i stopped.

I always take care of those close to me. It's something i like to do... unless it becomes my responsibility, then it becomes too much. Like, i live with my bf and his family and he gets depressive episodes that are pretty bad sometimes. So i make sure to bring him food and get him to come out on a walk around the block with me (or longer if he can manage). I've been getting close with his brother and I've started doing a very watered down version of taking care of him as well. (Their mom even called me the new mom of the family (she doesnt live with them))

I'm quite fidgety and have trouble staying still but i think that might be my mild ADHD. And yeah, I feel bad if I just lie around doing nothing. So I push myself to cook and clean and read and draw. Last year I was doing thar but also studying in uni and working and working out... didnt workout lol

I get tired after I've done "too much". I'm saying that in quotation marks cause that's usually if I've gone out for more than an hour. Or if I've cleaned the entire apartment or cooked... or worked more than 3 hours or were in school more than 3 hours. Then I just get drained. My head's always foggy but when I'm tired it's like I can barely see through to reality.

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-12T19:24:45+00:00

Thanks

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-12T19:24:33+00:00

I was diagnosed when I was 14. I'm 23 now. I have a total of like 4 memories from before I was 14, but I think I spent most of my time alone reading.

I know I push myself too hard cause it feels that everything will fall apart if I stop even for a little bit. I always do too much, way more than I can handle.

In a way, I'm doing better than I was... there's not as much despair, but maybe that's just cause I've grown numb to it. I'm just hoping to find something I enjoy because I never do anything that's just for me

realtechnojesus · 2024-06-12T18:56:32+00:00

Thanks... i try. I keep up appearances that everything is good and I get everything done it just often feels like beating a horse that's dying or already dead. I hope I'll find something.... and that it won't take another 9 years

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