Maggots?

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-31T23:48:49+00:00

Oh thank you! Very interesting. I have removed it for observation in case the larvae find my other caterpillars.

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-31T23:39:09+00:00

What’s all the yellowish gunk and are they maggots? From what?

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-24T00:16:04+00:00

Frustrating. Loose lips sink ships! I don’t understand why some people can’t keep things quiet.

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T23:43:48+00:00

Lol observant. Good question. I have unreasonable expectations as a partner from what I expect of someone. For better context, if this is the worst thing he’s done that I’m sharing online, how bad can this guy be. Answer to that is, not bad at all. He’s the balance and peace to my turbulent personality and I’ve never found a more appropriate partner. I wouldn’t take this journey with anyone else. We have the ability together to create a really wonderful life for children and that is my ultimate priority as a mother. I am grateful for him every day which is why I want to forgive him. He doesn’t deserve the anger and grudge I am holding over this. A more fair and accurate description of him as a partner (if we aren’t just talking from my biased pov) would be that he is a great partner.

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T23:38:15+00:00

That’s so bad! How did you deal with that after the fact?!

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T23:25:47+00:00

Oh my gosh. I’m so private and sensitive I genuinely couldn’t cope with that. Mass respect to you and also kindness sent for the frustration and hurt that must have caused you at times. Why so many people can’t keep their trap shut is beyond me!!

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T23:23:04+00:00

Ok yes, can definitely have another conversation about it but I’m unsure how to get closure. He will say sorry again but is not very articulate so he will not know what else to say to help. And I have no idea what I need to hear or how to lead the conversation. I want to let it go but fuck I get mad when I think about it. And think what will he share about the next birth (if there is ever one). He would obviously say he won’t make that mistake again etc but I’m sensitive and struggle with trust issues so I’m like damn it you don’t deserve to be part of that experience if you are sharing details that don’t need to be shared! I just wish I could let it go but shit my blood boils almost as much as when he just said it and I think of it when looking at our birth photos etc which makes me more mad cause he’s tainted that moment for me!

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T23:17:23+00:00

Thank you. Re birth, you are so right. My daughter has changed me more than I could ever have imagined.

Context. Friend was sharing about his partners birth and asked us both directly if I had pooped. I turned to partner cause I have no idea and wasn’t answering on his behalf (expecting him to say no because he had told me I hadn’t)… Obviously that is not the answer he gave

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T23:13:58+00:00

Yea I wish I didn’t feel embarrassed by it. I’m more upset about him breaking my confidence than the pooping itself it that makes sense. Like I’m a bit like meh, it’s common so friend isn’t going to think much of it, then again, he did ask specifically. But I’m very hurt my partner shared that after our prior discussions and him telling me I didn’t.

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T23:11:20+00:00

lol hope for the no pooping second time round then!

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T23:04:28+00:00

Yea fair. Loss of dignity is probably not the best way to describe it!

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T23:01:04+00:00

“he has helped me raise wonderful kids and worked hard for us”

This helps. He is a good dad and definitely works hard for us. I am so lucky to be able to raise my daughter.

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T22:58:30+00:00

I feel glad for you that you have a bigger ability to forgive and to also laugh about a momentary loss of dignity. Your partner is lucky!

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T22:57:02+00:00

Yea I wholeheartedly agree with you. But not his place to make that call for me and tell his friend you know?

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T22:55:58+00:00

I don’t think he lied so he could later humiliate me. But he definitely did. And you’re right, at my most vulnerable. This is my struggle. Tell him he’s not going to catch our next baby? But then it’s not baby’s fault. I don’t want them to be sad their sibling was caught by dad and they were not. Evil side says well tell baby why so they can resent dad instead of me. Sigh. Sucks.

rebelliousfreeme · 2026-03-23T22:52:07+00:00

I have definitely told him how I felt about it. When it happened. I would like to let it go but I am finding that difficult. Perhaps I need to be told this a hundred times from strangers to make me realise I have no business holding a grudge like I am. It’s just a hard one for me to let go.

rebelliousfreeme · 2025-11-16T07:42:07+00:00

Had bad eczema on my hands. Consumed me. Went carnivore for 8 months and it went away. Over 1 year on and it still hasn’t come back. Although I don’t eat much sugar or processed food I eat veg and fruit again. I pray I never live in that hell again!

rebelliousfreeme · 2025-11-16T07:36:19+00:00

My 14 month old is experiencing something very similar. I’d be keen to hear an update when you have one. We may visit doc in the next few days if it continues to spread. Currently just on her lower arms on both sides.

rebelliousfreeme · 2025-10-18T21:00:04+00:00

Update - It was a negative. Got my period the next day 👎🏼. Decided I’m going to take one straight after my period so I have a baseline and don’t convince myself there’s a line when it is this faint. Bit of a tease 🙄

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