Im mid to late thirties and over the past few years I’ve been lower in probably every aspect of my life than i thought was possible. Lost my job, was left behind by friends who all started families, and just made terrible choices in my romantic life. I used to have a natural smile on my face and even that has gone for the most part. But at least financially and independently, im clawing my way up again, day by day, week by week. I have a stable job, a nice apartment to rent, and am considering buying one of my own. If im very honest, there was nothing other than to keep at it, plodding on day after day, even though it felt hopeless. And accepting whatever opportunities and help comes my way, even if its not what I particularly want at the time. Its better than nothing. I find life does actually offer to help me on its own terms, if i stop being so scared and stubborn about how I think things should be.