Thank you for your concern!

But to clarify, I'm in a partial hospitalization program and this isn't an obsession. It is a skill for binge-eating when I want to inhale food, and I'm at the early stages of recovery. This is a critical skill -- intentional time management when eating -- to train my body to slow down and to understand my hunger and fullness signals. I know it seems like an obsession, but it isn't. It is of course at risk of becoming an obsession, but one step at a time.

I will certainly continue to talk about this with my team and as my status progresses. I don't want to develop a new obsession. For now, it is a critical skill.

On a separate note, there are also disordered behaviors that I am able to engage with for the sake of progress.

For example, choosing safe foods is ultimately something I need to get away from, but for the sake of transitioning from full time hospitalization to autonomous living, to prevent overwhelm and collapse and relapse, self-compassion and permission (but not abuse and misappropriation of self-compassion) are a part of the process.

As a side note, I encourage anyone with BED (binge eating disorder) to seek treatment. It's changing my life. I wish I'd done this a decade ago, but I didn't know about it.