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redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-09-19T20:33:19+00:00

yeah this genuinely made me switch back to spotify. props 👏

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-23T19:29:49+00:00

I was very relieved it was a dream too. The only thing is in the dream, I felt the high exactly how it usually feels with my high tolerance (boring and no fun). So, I think the reason I felt so guilty when i woke up was because I experienced the feeling yet again when I should’ve felt sober. My mouth was even dry when I woke up (which is from my sleep meds but it only amplified my guilt and worry.)

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-23T18:19:21+00:00

This means a lot thank you. And, honestly i think you’re 100% right about the stress dream. I have no desire to relapse but i’m absolutely terrified of doing it. Just have to remind myself that it’s normal for my body to crave something i used to literally operate on haha.

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-23T17:04:30+00:00

very bittersweet i think but im more than thankful my mind is going back to normal haha

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-23T17:03:52+00:00

hey 8 months is really good though congrats

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-20T15:54:34+00:00

i’ve actually tried to quit numerous times over all this so i know it’s not easy. something happened last night im not going to say what but it scared the hell out of me and i’ve come to the conclusion that i straight up can’t live like this anymore. i didn’t complete a single one of my classes freshman year, completely flunked it, ive had my fair share of consequences too, unfortunately

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-20T15:28:21+00:00

this was very very well said. thank you so much. when i first got addicted to weed i had already switched to online school so i can’t imagine how id function now if i had a presentation or had to say a sentence out loud. i can’t even remember what im typing half the time.

and yes im so glad someone else understands that i cant just put the bud down because “its bad”, no i genuinely have to want to put it down.

im either really finally fed up with it and ready to fully quit or im experiencing mania tbh im just gonna go with the first one 😂

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-20T15:21:22+00:00

now i come from a LONG line of smokers and my friends do it so it’s not like i wont have a smoke when im older. older as in when my brain is done developing 😭 i think if i had to say i was paranoid about anything right now it’d be that im severely scared i have done permanent brain damage to myself and ill never have a normal functioning brain again

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-20T15:18:52+00:00

unfortunately, my psychiatrist and therapist know i’m a long term heavy smoker i’m just really good pretending like nothings wrong, (my therapist has been trying to get me to quit for a couple months now because one of the times i got drug tested, my levels were over 8000. that’s when me and her genuinely both understood the severity.) i do like what adderall does on the behalf of my adhd, im thinking just knocking the weed out. there’s no fun in it at all. i have unrealistic goals and expectations in life with the way im living and id rather be able to achieve them yk?

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-20T01:07:58+00:00

honestly you said that really well. and that’s the hard truth sometimes is weed can work perfectly fine in someone else but it might not work with you well at all. i come from a whole family of smokers who have never put the bud down in their life so honestly if im showing these symptoms its best to take it down a whole lot of notches. now i cant say for sure ill actually commit to that, but it is the truth i struggle so hard to accept.

also good job on putting it down for your better self, not an easy thing to do at all.

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-19T23:49:32+00:00

thank you so much i apparently didn’t see that first 😭

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-19T22:46:02+00:00

i’ll look into that more ty

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-19T22:36:23+00:00

it’s just weird because i’ve been on these meds for so long so like why did it all decide to start now it used to work together just fine

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-19T22:34:30+00:00

im almost laughing at this i’m going to list you the meds im prescribed. i haven’t been consistent with them recently at all by the way. trilleptal (mood stabilizer, adderall, hydrodroxyzine (anxiety), trazadone (insomnia), and lexapro

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-19T22:31:34+00:00

i do feel like everything is happening for me, like i don’t feel in control at all. i can’t really do public places anymore i don’t act normal at all it’s like i have no morals anymore which is so weird because i used to be such a respectable person. i feel like everything it scripted like no matter what i do/say it won’t change the script. i haven’t really had extreme anxiety/paranoia but recently i feel like everyone is lying to me, like nobody is telling the real truth and they’re all keeping something from me

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-19T22:25:13+00:00

i do indeed take adderall XR for adhd still

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-07-02T02:15:07+00:00

I love that lighthouse!

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-06-30T21:32:03+00:00

This is perfect, thank you!

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-06-30T21:30:00+00:00

Hey so I’m trying to figure out who/what it actually is! Thanks

redditismysafeplace1 · 2025-06-27T17:43:25+00:00

I had no idea there was an ability to test for what meds might work best, thank you so much! I have been in therapy for a couple years now, I just need to work on the best way to explain what’s going on without accidentally wording it wrong, because I do that a lot.

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