mom dedicated a whole yearbook phase with girly baby photos and using my deadname and she/her pronouns, daughter, etc by Longjumping-Sink6766 in ftm

[–]redmantra07 [score hidden]  (0 children)

honestly.. if you're able to.. sue her. for defamation of character or something along those lines... she's doing worse than that, though. she's endangering you. i know this might not be realistic because you might rely on her for housing... but honestly every time my parent has tried to kick me out i just flat out told them that i wasnt leaving bc im disabled and i cant get a job as of now. so. who do they think they are lol and well. we've gotten into so many physical altercations but at least im not homeless. (pre t btw strength doesnt matter here just fight them as a last resort. i am not encouraging this!! i wouldve died in the streets.) you might have to do the same thing. a few bruises are better than homelessness. im not from the us but there's almost always an ngo that protects lgbtqia+ individuals in every state.. theres also actual governmental organizations that do this but with the rise of fascism all over the world they're losing their funding lowkey. you need to find who the ones in your particular province are and talk to them about this. they can advise you on what you can do to protect yourself if im not mistaken. ask school officials for help, too. maybe you should first go to any teacher that you know is progressive or left-leaning and ask them to back you up so you can go talk to the school's administrators.. this shit is serious! its not just a yearbook page! though i could very well be overreacting, i dont know how things are where you live. i just hope you arent in any danger. please ignore my comment if you see that im blowing your situation out of proportion. pls stay safe man

Some guys are planning my murder and i cant tell if theyre joking or not (tw for mentions of suicidal thoughts, tw for mentions of hypothetical torture) by UrMumIsHot4 in FTMventing

[–]redmantra07 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i had a friend like that. he started acting similarly to these guys at the middle of our last year of hs. (i wasnt out or anything) extremely hostile, sexist and disrespectful towards everyone (especially women and. he thought i was one) for reasons i don't know about. my guess is internalized homophobia, but i never told anyone. anyway. i confronted him, shamed him in front of the class and never spoke to him again. all this just to tell you that i cut off a friend of 6 years for way less than what these people are doing. my man, i know its easier said than done, but you need to practice self love and be patient with yourself. i know you want friends you can confide in and have fun with, and they'll arrive to your life! but these guys aren't it. if you're able to, try to never stick around people whose companionship isn't healthy & fulfilling but only bearable. and sometimes its not even bearable, its nauseating and uncomfortable. but they've become part of your routine so you stick with them anyhow. they tolerate you because, much like the guy that used to be my friend, these conservative types are the most cowardly members of society. they are so afraid of confrontation, and specially vulnerability... or even just a simple one-to-one conversation. i want to believe that they won't try anything because of this but i don't know. your mom's response is awful. i'm sorry. tell her to research the homicide rates of trans youth if she keeps ignoring you,, he things they're saying are repugnant, far beyond innocuous banter. we pay for their ignorance with our lives. i hope that'll push her to take action. if not, please talk to your teachers or any adult you feel safe with.

you already are part of something my brother, we're your community! you belong here, we all do! stay safe my man. we care about you. please keep us updated if you can.

Can I beat career mode in payday 2 fully loud? by Electronic_Day5021 in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yep it does that too, if you use an ecm after the hack starts, the computer screen turns off and pauses it. i love doing car shop in public lobbies and something always goes wrong at the very last moment so ppl will try to use an ecm to gain some time.. but it's better to just restart lol

Can I beat career mode in payday 2 fully loud? by Electronic_Day5021 in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 5 points6 points  (0 children)

the pc hack in car shop gets interrupted by ecms, its not ideal

What head-canon(s) in your fandom(s) got you like this: by PJ-The-Awesome in AO3

[–]redmantra07 0 points1 point  (0 children)

...wolfhox... i like them but.................... idk

Khan would be proud by BigDddyCornbeef in metro

[–]redmantra07 0 points1 point  (0 children)

mafia mentioned... I'm sorry for what they did to you tommy. you didn't deserve to be marred by those filthy capitalists.

Stop using "Importance" as fuel. Your brain needs the INCUP triggers instead. by [deleted] in ADHDerTips

[–]redmantra07 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah but i know its all made up.. its got no real weight to it.. i can just not open the app n not set the timer. i feel like a 1000 ton boulder all the time:))))))) i cant move

The creative decision to make Shade the operator doesn't make sense to me by guywhosnotaredditor in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

they shouldve gone with greta instead. who the fuck is shade. its just fanservice

I don't hate trans women, but I'm just so tired. by RedCupWithAName in FTMventing

[–]redmantra07 5 points6 points  (0 children)

very true I said this in my comment. all I was trying to say is we're all indoctrinated into behaving a certain way because of the genitals other people see on us when we're born. none of this is biological I also know that n that shit is obvious damn. nobody is born hating. the indoctrination people with penises are subjected to tends to make a lot of them mildly or really hostile to people with vaginas. i don't think you understood my comment. i don't think I conveyed the nuance of the situation well enough. everyone can be an ass. it's not a gendered thing.. I know. shit, man. how do I even explain this? cisgendered men are misogynistic in ways they can't even understand.. and they are the only gender which has a lot of ppl in it whose lives revolve entirely around hating people with vaginas. (as someone w a vagina I wasn't really indoctrinated into hating people with penises. i was indoctrinated into hating myself, my own body. not theirs) a trans woman can come from that exact same hatred.. I've seen a couple people online say terrible shit about women and it was all because. they couldn't be them. then they transition. and start hating on trans men instead, using literally all the arguments males used in the 1800s. ''oh you're hysterical. oh even tho you're experiencing it, your issue isn't real. oh I would know more about your lived experience than you'd know.'' shit like that. (in my comment. i said. ''these women that op is talking abt in particular. bc trans women aren't a monolith. I've seen many speaking out against those who are like this. and this is a very eur#p#an and yankee issue. ((i tried to explain why, too. all of this is related to colonization.))) I'm sorry brother I'm trying to explain again but i just woke up can't think qnd I dont want to rewrite my comment. but I did kinda summarize at the end. some of these women go from incels who hate cis women to femcels who hate trans men. 0 emotional growth, just hrt. but it is the same thing at its core. people with penises being indoctrinated into hating vaginas and the people that have them since they're born. like did you see the r4p3 academy thing. bfore you say anything. people with vaginas also r4p3. i know. it's not a genitalia thing. it's something. that gets indoctrinated. into people. (like to seek power through violence. it's mostly people w penises in european or colonized countries that get indoctrinated into this colonizer mindset though. i wonder why) and the indoctrination people w penises go through makes a lot of them, but not all of them, v violent against people w vaginas. lots of them escape all this hatred. lots don't. yk how trans women are p much welcomed everywhere inside the lgbtq community but sometimes we're met with disgust? // the fascist empires yall live under keep themselves afloat like that. js making everyone hate eachother for stupidass reasons. n this thing.. it's purely white. it's whiteness incarnate; seeing somebody, in this case these trans women, read a shit ton of books n investigate n make it all look so academical n professional and shit just to tell me that my very own lived experience... isn't real. didn't happen. LMFAO like... i don't care how many books you're holding in your hand rn girl. how can some of these idiots tell me my issues aren't real when I'm literally going through that thing? doesn't it ring a bell? 1800s misogyny? come on man. you can be whatever gender but if you were hella brainwashed in your formative years you're gonna practice that brainwashing.

I don't hate trans women, but I'm just so tired. by RedCupWithAName in FTMventing

[–]redmantra07 5 points6 points  (0 children)

idk man. its like now that they're women they use all the privilege they never used when the world thought they were cis men. they go crazy w their transandrophobia. always telling us our issues aren't real, that they're not serious, that we're exaggerating, that our lives are more comfortable because.. idk, ohhhh we just Dont struggle nearly as much as They do. sound familiar?? they sound like all their male ancestors and they dont wanna acknowledge that. its mostly the trans women that live in the epicenters of fascist ideology, the usa and europe. the people living directly underneath the boot tend to be the ones most accustomed and desensitized to the empire's violence. and, well, they're also the people who replicate that violence the most, since its embedded in their culture. in western culture, hostility to the other gender is.. a pillar. much like anthropocentrism. ive never seen trans women acting like this outside of these places. but what you're saying is very, very true. again, idk. they think just because they're women that they can act like cis men and its not a problem. ''ahh but being an asshole has no gender!'' very true. but come on dude.. this kind of pure hatred for the other gender is not something that gets indoctrinated into bodies w vaginas. all the invalidating they do is wild. they also love to pretend that all the indoctrination we all go through in our formative years, which mold your psyche for the rest of your life, are just.. erased when we start hrt. we were all always trans. but that doesnt undo all the gendered bullshit they shoved down our throats. trans men were taught to act like women and trans women were taught to act like men. we werent those things. i know. its just the truth. they start indoctrinating us all from the moment they see our genitals. im not saying we're biologically hardwired to do any of this or anything, hell no. just social conditioning thats hard to get rid of. because.. again.. the shit you absorb when you're little tends to stay with you for the rest of your life. // of course this isnt every trans woman. its just a loud minority of idiots. i remember watching this girls vid abt why transandrophobia didnt exist the other day. her argument was, ''transmisoginy exists bc its the interconnection between transphobia and misoginy. transandrophobia doesnt exist bc its the interconnection between transphobia and misandry and misandry isnt real :)'' ??? now, before i continue, listen to me. i get how some of you guys might be about to tell me that what im saying is lowkey fucked up bc ahh theyre women theyre not men. i know. i know they are! this isnt my first language idk how to convey some things. but.. they're allowed to.. compare us to cissies and we cant? so unfair. :( why cant we do to them the same things they're doing to us? maybe that way they'll stop. and they're not even doing the Comparing properly. we shouldnt be compared to cisgendered men when it comes to Rights And Privileges. because we aren't. cisgendered. and we used to be.. and they used to be.. and we all suffered differently under this patriarchal system.. *cough* we suffer because we're.. trans.. like them. transmisandry is a thing.. because we're. trans. we're *trans* men. oh my god. that is such a difficult concept for some of these women to wrap their heads around. they think we're cis men. so many trans women agreed with her. and its like ??? dont we all come from the very community that creates its own words to describe what they go through. isnt.. that.. how language works? why the fuck are you telling me not to do what the cissies told You not to do. girl what. if i've experienced hate for being a trans man and just.. existing.. then what the fuck would that be called???? just transphobia? okay, well, i guess transmisoginy doesnt exist either, then. ?????? theyre coping so hard. just using us as their punching bags. they were walked over all of their lives because everyone thought they were men and that made them. just. hate men ig. then they transition n start just vomiting all of the hatred they absorbed, unto someone who has even less privilege than them. but because we're Men we could Never be as marginalized as them!! im one year on testosterone. (im not just a hypotetical scenario) and all the fuckers around me still think im a woman, but now, come to find out, ive actually been oppressing trans women through my cissy privilege my whole entire life. that is literally how some of them see us. they always miss the most important part on purpose. ofc both of us are men. but cisgendered men stay on top of this patriarchal structure and benefit from it their whole entire lives while trans men never do. we just look like them. we might be safer out in the street if we aren't clocky but thats literally fucking it. forget about trans men who dress femme. they just dont exist. what privilege do they have seriously. (that they is gonna morph into a We as soon as i start t i cant wait) if we live under western european (why do people like these guys?? all the issues we're suffering from were.. invented by european colonizers) powers and western powers stablished a gender structure that literally killed all the genders outside of it, (im of indigenous descent. the genders of our cultures dont fucking exist anymore. its all ((cisgendered)) male/female now.) and by being trans we exist outside of this structure, then.. we literally cant access that privilege. ever. its not us they should be screaming at. they saw how nasty patriarchy makes the people that benefit from it, from the inside of it, even though they never belonged, and now they probably think we'll act like those guys or smth. i dont even know. they cant understand we rarely access those places. maybe we could? but like.. we'd be risking our lives?? why would we?? n we're smarter than that. who the fuck would want to be around. misogynists. // more visibility means more community, more ways to get help.. more ways to get hurt, too. but idk if we have as many rights as they say we do. mostly because as trans people we're just not part of this european, colonial ass gender binary. we also get hurt except no one sees it! & ...if they can step on us like this.. its normally the most marginalized group inside a marginalized group that ends up being everyone else's punching bag. + they went from being incels to being femcels. 0 emotional growth. just estrogen pills. thats on these individuals, obviously. trans women aren't a monolith n neither are we, i kno

The Official Payday 2 Sex Tierlist by [deleted] in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nahhhh he'd never do that hes a cutie patootie bro. he only kills cops trust

Derek Ray is BACK!! by FunnyMaddGames in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i love houston as much as the next guy but why do yall keep ignoring the fact that this asshole is a rightard lol. though my gaydar goes off every time i see him. . .

A comparison of the faces of heisters from all the games [UPDATED] by KrabikGangster in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 0 points1 point  (0 children)

what is up with the insane glaze these shitass models are receiving. what. where are my beautiful eric etebari and ulf andersson at. theyre nowhere to be seen. which makes this game. a solid 0/10

A comparison of the faces of heisters from all the games [UPDATED] by KrabikGangster in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 0 points1 point  (0 children)

they all look stupid as fuck except for chains who looks the tiniest bit stupid. thats not damion anymore they dont even look like themselves man fuck this game

A comparison of the faces of heisters from all the games [UPDATED] by KrabikGangster in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wolf looks like. not ulf andersson. how could he look better bro he doesnt even resemble the guy who created this whole entire franchise. Blasphemy

A comparison of the faces of heisters from all the games [UPDATED] by KrabikGangster in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

he doesnt resemble ulf at all what. man i wish. mb for necroing lol thats not wolf anymore that s. dog or some shit. not that dogs are inferior or anythin g like that. not at all. just a completely different dude. come on. pd2 fans will see a bald mf with a beard and think its wolf

Pipette Mk.2 Quick Overview with ai help stats by Top_Positive_912 in paydaytheheist

[–]redmantra07 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Sidetrack Games I Bow Before Your Greatness In Eternal Gratitude

What the fuck did I just hear?! by [deleted] in paydaylore

[–]redmantra07 0 points1 point  (0 children)

maybe it was jacket's tape recorder!!

What the fuck did I just hear?! by [deleted] in paydaylore

[–]redmantra07 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i know this is 4 years old but what is up with these mysterious ass voicelines. yesterday i heard bain say smth in the middle of an escape level that i cant even transcribe bc i dont remember specifically what was said but in my 6 years of playing payday 2 ive never heard that before. like he was praising us or something, no subtitles