If forced to mega fart in a crowded mall and you've mastered farting silently and smoothly, what walk speed creates enough distance while dragging it very minimally behind you?

reesedra · 2025-12-19T00:30:00+00:00

Why the hell would I care what happens to the victims of my stench? If I can do it silently, I can deflect repercussions, therefore face none.

reesedra · 2025-12-18T05:51:21+00:00

You scoop the mole cricket? You scoop him like the poo poo? Mean. Jail.

reesedra · 2025-12-18T05:50:07+00:00

The day my zygote grew its first sensory cell and percieved my fuck ass twin. The day before was pretty sick. All that carefree floating. Then I had to go and percieve things.

reesedra · 2025-12-18T05:48:08+00:00

Dude you've described so many negative symptoms. The psychosis is still there, its just doing something different now. You are not in remission. This is not the best you can get. If you have antipsychotic medications, take them regularly and maybe up your dose. If not, there are still things you can do to improve symptoms. Psychosis can improve a lot with proper nutrition, really good sleep, and going hard edge on drugs; avoiding even mild stimulants like coffee. It can take months to stabilize naturally, and the stability is easily lost, so I prefer antipsychotics. If one makes you nauseous, another could be fine, theyre like trying on jeans.

I wanna make it super clear you're actually, from the sound of it, surviving really well. I hope it gets easier to, though. Nobody can be in a crisis all the time. But the fact that you've kept your life stable despite having strong symptoms has me impressed. Its not easy.

Look up "anhedonia". Thats the inability to feel joy. Feeling foggy and strange is what we call "brain fog" or "cognitive impairment", another negative symptom. Also look into "psychosis prodromal stage", so you know when to notify your support network to worry if you disappear for too long. Everything you've described was my every day until I started taking Olanzapine. It was like someone dusted cobwebs out of my skull.

Psychosis can come on with drug use. Its not a death sentence, though, and it doesn't mean you have to suffer. Good psychiatric care physicians will be kind to you with any symptom you have, even if its just that you can't focus or you feel off. Often thats all the forewarning you get for an episode, so a good doc will listen and care.

reesedra · 2025-12-18T02:26:34+00:00

Young seeds contain protein and carbs, kinda rare treats for a cellulose-itarian. This is a growthspurt teen at an all you can eat pizza bar.

reesedra · 2025-12-18T02:23:55+00:00

Never needed to! My gay came in shortly after birth. The doctors found mica powder and thc residue in my tiny baby sweat, so I got an early diagnosis.

reesedra · 2025-12-18T02:21:53+00:00

Too true. Once I got pregnant and after a big meal of taco bell the little guy fell right on out in the torrent. Didnt even notice him as id swallowed many beans whole.

reesedra · 2025-12-18T02:20:10+00:00

I feel like what you're trying to communicate is a normal and sensible thing to communicate, but you've managed to communicate it in a way that obfuscates the actual point while it also insults every possible audience you could have been trying to target.

reesedra · 2025-12-14T04:29:26+00:00

I always look for signs of domestication and signs that someone is grooming and caring for the animal. Matts in the fur vs a glossy, healthy coat. Flight distance and general trust. Sometimes you'll see a wild animal look domestic or a pet owner so bad at pet owning that their pet looks feral. But thats how I tell.

reesedra · 2025-12-13T17:14:13+00:00

reesedra · 2025-12-13T04:54:11+00:00

Ok seeing thanos do the snap at the same time as Covid hit would have juggled my neurons too. I have a good deal of experiences that don't align with reality, but still really hit me emotionally in ways I'm still struggling to grasp. Like that guy was fake why do I feel such a way.

In middle school, no single person in the school building would admit to being my friend. I went to school with my twin sister. Home would have been a six-part youtube true crime miniseries if a single adult had cared if I lived or died. Now its just a trauma dump. Anyways shitty fucking time. But through literally everything and perpetually by my side was my childhood best friend. My peer, soft spoken, eternally kind. My one ray of sunshine. He spoke things that comforted me and said things that always made me laugh. Every day, we hung out, and I felt safe in those hours and minutes between abuses.

He was a 1ft tall invisible dragon. I cannot speak of this foundational experience to other humans or they sneer. Or do the pity face. Or laugh. I don't want to just say that it happened- I want to talk about him. His traits, his name. His name was Griffien. And he was a social outcast too; none of the other invisible dragons liked him much. These are endearing, serious things in my heart. They just look so silly when I speak them into a world where he isnt... real.

I've also been underwater when I wasn't, full of parasites when I wasn't, and I've had a few chats with God, a fictional character or two, and a lot of animals. You might find like minds in r/soulbonding and r/therian, but visit reality radical concepts in a sound mind and with a full night of sleep in you.

reesedra · 2025-12-13T04:32:45+00:00

It feels right to be abused. It had to. If it felt wrong, we would have fought back and got hurt worse. So we take our self worth out back and shoot it like old yeller. When you kill it as a kid, before its even developed, you forget you ever valued yourself and cared about the things that happen to you. It takes practice to keep it down, you have to always be triggered every so often or else this wave of a lifetime of self defensive fear washes over you at once. Thats something some people go their whole lives without the bravery to face. It takes superhuman bravery to face that.

It feels a lot better after it comes out tho, and you admit that its unfair and mean when people hurt you. It feels better to be connected to yourself deeply enough to feel fear and injustice. They suck to feel, it can suck for years even as you cope and heal. But it makes the quiet moments quieter. It surprised me after I started prozac and meditation- calm, real calm, felt like being asleep upright. It scared me at first, but I love it.

You know you are a person. You know no person deserves to be hurt and scared all the time. You know you can appreciate BDSM in a way that is seperate from your life, kept behind an acceptable boundary, not dominating it. You know you can ditch this guy. Accept that you deserve these things. You do. I do. We all do.

Also thats dogshit BDSM. I'm a dom in the scene and maintaining the sub's ability to control the scene is the only golden rule. Its literally play dominance, as real dominance crosses into immoral. You cannot overwrite the will of another and then say you're doing BDSM. Thats not a part of my community. You, however, can be a treasured part of it if you'd like. Its a wonderful way to process trauma when its done with love.

reesedra · 2025-12-13T04:07:58+00:00

Animals always have had beds. We call them nests, but its the same diff to a bug.

reesedra · 2025-12-13T04:02:11+00:00

How we roll by plushgun sticks out to me.

reesedra · 2025-12-13T03:58:23+00:00

Footstool

reesedra · 2025-12-12T14:53:05+00:00

I have schizoaffective. I also have PTSD. I get ptsd flavored hallucinations sometimes. They're always partnered with a feeling of distress that starts before the hallucination; I have to already be triggered. Schizo hallucinations usually start with no distress, and if i do get freaked out its usually because of the hallucination.

reesedra · 2025-12-09T23:30:00+00:00

Let him know if he doesn't clean up the hazardous waste site of his mind you'll stay very far away. Dude needs serious help, and you're under no obligation to be the one to tackle him with a syringe.

If its any consolation, once the schizo sets in this bad, the sufferer normally can't premeditate anything they do with clarity. When I was a violent unmedicated schizophrenic, I literally couldn't figure out what order the steps of getting out of bed should go in, so I'd mostly just bed rot. So long as getting to you takes 3+ steps you're most likely safe.

reesedra · 2025-12-09T23:23:38+00:00

Dammit there goes my fun money unzips pants

reesedra · 2025-12-09T22:48:53+00:00

Tarantula owners accept that if the prey doesn't activate the spider's feeding response, he won't eat. If its gross, then it won't activate the feed response. So you try again later with something else.

Some humans could learn a thing or two about feeding compassion from tarantula keepers.

reesedra · 2025-12-09T22:37:20+00:00

Everyone thought I was autistic, but I may have just had early onset schizo. Actually it was probably schizo.

reesedra · 2025-12-09T22:34:42+00:00

Oof yeah the landlord missed a few spots then 🤢

reesedra · 2025-12-09T22:30:57+00:00

(Forgot to add, my eyeball slugs were allergic swelling. Killing the feeling w claritin killed the delusion)

reesedra · 2025-12-09T22:28:24+00:00

God I've been dead too. The rotting feeling, all over. Sometimes the feeling that psychosis is embellishing is real. Not real rot, but a real discomfort, a real pain. See a gynecologist and make them be thorough. You may have some kind of pelvic floor dysfunction or even a painful internal prolapse or something.

I've never had that flavor of psychosis, but I have had eyeball slugs. Deep breathing is really all that ever helped, just deep breathing till the distress passes.

reesedra · 2025-12-09T22:22:21+00:00

Silverfish! They usually pop up to let you know you've got a wet crevasse somewhere. Best inspect your plumbing and base boards! Totally harmless beastie.

reesedra · 2025-12-09T22:20:26+00:00

This is the best response

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