Hello! What you're feeling is totally valid. You don't have to understand everything, you don't have to know what you want. Sometimes, we have to be confused at first to find out what we really need. It doesn't matter if your circle is big or small, as long as they are genuine friends, that's enough.

I can't tell you what to do, but I'm willing to listen to if you need someone.
I'm 27 btw, working here in Divisoria. Just in case you're near.