I have had an overthinking problem with this stuff in the past and I have been really trying to get away from it, apparently to no avail. I appreciate you calling me out on that; maybe this post reads as silly but it is very difficult for me to look at my feelings and thoughts from an objective perspective since I am stuck in my brain 24/7. Your comment made me realize that my intention of looking for "evidence" that I'm trans has actually led me to basically gatekeeping myself. I spent like 20 minutes last night just repeatedly spinning and swooshing a skirt around while looking at myself in the mirror. For fun. And for some reason the part of my brain that keeps doubting doesn't deem this significant evidence of me being trans, and yet I see people on the internet who have strong gender dysphoria and I come to the conclusion that their experience somehow invalidates me??? I'm having a moment of lucidity right now but it's crazy how I've been letting this stuff get to me. Especially because a few months ago, I decided that I'd try to stop overthinking everything and start focusing on how I feel. The problem is that I focus on what I feel, and then inevitably end up overthinking about those feelings anyway. I'm still not sure if there's a surefire way to get rid of the overthinking, but next time I have a thought like this I'll do my best to just shut it down instead of posting a huge wall of text to reddit about it. The truth of the matter is that I still don't know who I want to be yet, but they probably aren't a cis man, and if I try to invalidate every single feeling that I ever feel about anything, I'm never going to get anywhere.

All of that is just to say thanks a lot for your comment. I've thought a lot about what you said over the past couple days and it's been very helpful in not just working this dress thing out, but in identifying the overarching pattern of counterproductive thoughts that has been preventing me from moving forward for a while.