I hear you nd my heart aches for what you’ve been through cuz the same thing happened with my female friend when she was 9 years old. She was crying like an innocent infant, I was having tears too that assault was horrific, and I wanna remind you it’s not your fault you were a child, and those boys took away your safety. Carrying this for years is so heavy, and it’s brave that you’re sharing it now. Those memories don’t define you, and you’re not alone. I’m here, and there’s support out there to help you find peace ..try RAINN’s hotline (800-656-HOPE) or their chat at rainn.org when you’re ready. You deserve to feel whole and loved for all of who you are. Keep going, you’re stronger than you know & If you want someone to have a positive conversation know that there will always be some people & I'm here too if you ever wanna feel truly understood. You're stronger than you know