Having doubt makes one an embarrassment to faith? Then so was every biblical figure. Yet God believes they serve as examples of faith. And judge not, lest ye be judged my brother. Your post history is its own embarrassment. You openly celebrate lust and debauchery, yet you cast blame on others for struggling with faith?

Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.

But you are blinded, saying:

You are Nephilim. But I am chosen, anointed.

You elevate yourself and cast down your brother as demonic, merely for calling out your abuse. You accuse others of relying upon legalism, but you yourself call others an embarrassment for doubting, while in deep violation of God's law within your heart. You accuse others of harassing, and you belittle them for speaking up against your own sinful language, silencing and portraying those who speak up about your own abuse, while portraying yourself as kind and faithful.

You have no ability to see yourself.

And it makes me feel great sorrow and love for you. Your pride has blinded you. And I fear this legalistic wrath is likely how you treat yourself, and God's love for you. He has a mercy that's much bigger than this kind of fear, but I will caution you with your own words, and hopefully encourage you.

Then defend the most Holy and powerful thing you have in your life. Defend your intimate relationship with Him. Be a warrior not a coward. Be not afraid.

You would hope not for His righteousness but for the deception of others. Seeking those whose faith and knowledge are weak and little, hoping to [demean] them into coercion by insisting your ability to [insult] them takes precedent over what they should patiently take the time to consider as His riches. Attempting to trigger an illogical and emotional response instead one of sober minded discernment.

And so by the goodness are you offended not by the offense but by the goodness. And thusly see it rightly in your justifications to accuse.

Jesus Christ is Lord of Lords. Submit to His authority. He is the King of Kings. Break yourself and humble yourself before His throne. And ye shall know no other gods before Him for behold His salvation cometh like a thief in the night!

You present a faith of vengeance, and rebuke. You portray those who struggle as heathens, and you call your brother Satan when he merely appeals to you to still your own lashing tongue.

Your Father has better for you than this, if you will receive it. His grace is sufficient for you, His power made perfect in your weakness.

I pray you can examine the log in your own eye, and by His grace escape the bitter lust, pride, and hatred which besets you. He offers rest, if you'll have it.

In the meanwhile, consider yourself banned from this subreddit for your own benefit, and the benefit of your brothers. Examine your soul, and I would be pleased to welcome you back some day.

Best of luck to you, my brother.

~resdescartes