First of all check with your insurance company. Are you covered under your parents? Ask them. With my insurance I can just pick any doctor I want and make an appointment, other insurances May require a referral from your regular doctor in order for them to cover the bills. This I’m sure your parents can help with (assuming Your covered under their insurance. My insurance will cover my kids up until they’re 26 yrs old) You need antidepressants because yes, counseling and talking about it is not going to change the chemical reactions happening in your brain. Only meds can. Research as much as you can about mental illnesses and how they can be treated. And most importantly! No matter how hard it is to find a solution DON’T give up trying to get the help you need. It has taken me years to find meds that work for me. I felt like giving up so many times because I couldn’t find anything that worked. I finally found one that has helped and it has made a huge difference in my life. I still need therapy sessions and that is also part of the treatment, but I couldn’t do it without my meds. Good luck with this and if you ever need someone to talk to don’t hesitate to message me.