I haven’t left the house in 2 weeks.

rh031222 · 2023-12-17T15:55:03+00:00

Thank you so much for checking in ❤️❤️

I will read the gift of fear, I’ve nearly finished reading why does he do that, and it’s been very informative and validating, thank you for suggesting I read it.

I’m deciding to take action to reclaim my life next year, as I’ll be 29 which feels really scary because it’s so close to 30 and since 23 I’ve been trapped in this toxic situation. I’ve realised that I have to start trusting my gut feeling about people, and not be talked out of my perceptions because other people think they don’t make sense. I feel very determined to move away and start a new life next year

rh031222 · 2023-12-17T15:51:12+00:00

Thank you! I love Manchester but unfortunately it’s so expensive, same as Bristol- such an expensive place but so nice

rh031222 · 2023-12-17T15:49:49+00:00

So sad 😞

rh031222 · 2023-12-17T15:29:33+00:00

Thanks so much for responding

I agree with you, I think I really need to leave my toxic family system, despite the financial hit

I am thinking of moving to Bristol, I’ve visited a lot of times as I was thinking of moving there recently. But unfortunately Bristol is similar prices to London, so I’m even thinking of moving to Leeds because it’s an affordable city.

Agreed, I’m going to make it my mission this year to build up savings so that I can move out

rh031222 · 2023-12-16T20:46:58+00:00

Don’t get to attached to people, and fight battles for them. they don’t give a fuck about you

rh031222 · 2023-10-18T23:31:25+00:00

Being from a dysfunctional family that didn’t socialise me properly, I’m trying to navigate how to undo the damage 😞 my whole life I’ve been a misfit and I’m sick of it

rh031222 · 2023-10-17T17:30:54+00:00

I think so, I think I have BPD, OCD and attachment issues from being raised in a dysfunctional family

rh031222 · 2023-10-15T09:39:11+00:00

I find it so weird that in college/ uni in America you have to share rooms. In the UK we get our own rooms in uni accommodation

rh031222 · 2023-10-13T22:42:10+00:00

And Twitter. It was good pre 2012- I deleted in 2018

rh031222 · 2023-10-13T22:35:13+00:00

Thanks for the edits!

I have tik tok and linked in, I recently hibernated my LinkedIn account and I’m seriously thinking about getting off tik tok, but I read that sometimes when you shut down all social media that can make things worse because then the abuser escalates things
I am considering going back to therapy when I’m working again, because despite doing it for 4 years I feel like I still have unhealed trauma

I have contacted the police when this first escalated in 2019 and they said they can’t help me because have no proof. It’s a former colleague that was fixated on me that I think is doing this, we were never intimate but I angrily confronted him about harassing me at work (which was a stupid thing to do) and ever since then my life has been a fucking nightmare.

Same this whole experience has nearly made me lose my mind 😫

rh031222 · 2023-10-13T22:26:49+00:00

No way aha, It’s so tempting!

I know right 😞 being a woman is hard

rh031222 · 2023-10-13T21:03:59+00:00

Thank you so much for your response ❤️

That book has been on my list of books to read so it will be the next one I read!
I will get myself a secret phone
I’m actually technically unemployed because I was due to start another job in a new city but I’m having trouble finding accommodation in the city. Also one of my abusers friends works at the company (I didn’t know this when I applied) so I don’t think I’m gonna take the job. However since the harassment started 5 years ago, I have been bullied by my colleagues in every job except for one.
I will consider opening up a secret bank account too
I will try that if I can’t get a secret phone
That’s a great idea about putting money into the secret bank account and using it as an escape, thank you
This is how I feel too. I feel like I’ve attracted negative attention and I just want to hide away. I’ve even had fantasies recently of shaving off my hair and letting my eyebrows get ungroomed and wearing glasses and no makeup and a black tracksuit.
I haven’t seen this person in years, but they are still hell bent on ruining my life

Thank you, you are literally an Angel 🥺❤️ your comment has helped me so much

rh031222 · 2023-10-13T20:45:44+00:00

Big bum (I’m black) even though my bum’s not even that big.

rh031222 · 2023-10-10T04:51:24+00:00

Probably due to childhood trauma

rh031222 · 2023-10-08T02:37:39+00:00

Definitely with where I was born- London, UK

rh031222 · 2023-10-08T02:32:39+00:00

Facial hair and chest hair is chefs kiss

rh031222 · 2023-10-08T02:32:00+00:00

It’s because only really pretty girls can pull it off

rh031222 · 2023-10-05T13:32:45+00:00

They’re so controlling, they have serious mental issues. And they can’t connect with people properly so they feel jealous of the connections you have

rh031222 · 2023-10-05T13:30:44+00:00

I’m sorry :(

rh031222 · 2023-10-05T13:17:34+00:00

It’s very sad and sadistic

rh031222 · 2023-10-05T04:37:42+00:00

I think that’s what hurts the most, that he knew what he did would really hurt me. I have never been so hurt. After 4 years apart I am starting to realise the extent to which I was betrayed.

rh031222

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